ive decided that since i probably wont have as much time as i had posting extremely long posts, i ll do short ones. like a basic summary of each day.
25/6 [SAT]: cosfest. went with lourdes. she bought KHR stuff and the exact same illustration book that wing bought -.- took a hell lot of pictures, saw about 9 mikus. I got a bunny hat thing and a shana tee~
Then i went to hunt for my bro. Lourdeh was so nervous about meeting him that when i was walking towards him i turned ard to check if she was there and she had disapppeared LOL. Then i spotted her watching from afar, so i went ahead and kinda ruffled grunt's hair xD He was sitting upon the floor with another bunch of people(classmates frm sec 4 and JC) playing the anime card game thing. Nee Kang stared at me but didnt say anything; i think he vaguely remembered me two years back but forgot my name. "Hello, Nee Kang right. Long time no see," i said.
He looked shocked.
I dont know why he looked shocked.
Anyway I snapped a few picts of them playing. After that L and i sat ard drawing near my bro and his classmates, halfway thru we got swarmed by cosplayers. My bro had disappeared after that.
After that L and i debated on where to go cause it was sundayyy and school reopened the next day and we wanted to make it good.
So somehow we went to artfriend at bras basah LOL. Was kinda nostalgic for me... i saw the styrofoam hands we used for OM and walked past the exact same places we walked past when sourcing for materials.
Then we ate dinner nearby~ I ate meatball noodles. Eet was good. The aunty was from china but shes dam nice. And smiley. I dont like eating at coffee shops cuz the people thr all blackface but this was okay. And we talked about shinna, uh, brandon(wa old flame liddat LOL) and our personalities.
me: yeah youre mysterious.
L: like what ki.nd of mysterious?
me: hmm... like, mysteriously mysterious.
L: -__-ll
me: xD
me: then how would you describe me?
lourdes: mysterious.
=+=
apparently the word 'quiet' crossed her mind but i wasnt quiet in NTPS, only in sec sch years so i guess thats why?
Hmm then we went back home. Feet hurt.
Bro smsed me, telling me that his friends were teasing him non stop about me. "Wa they were like 'you very close to ur sis horrrr' -gives troll face-. tey keep sayin incest lol" -..- kinda expected that. but cant imagine them troll-facing at each other xD
26/6/11[MONDAY]
woke up and straightaway felt like dying.
throughout school also felt like dying.
had assembly at parade square.
Mr M: what happened to your leg?
i explained.
Mr Chong: what happened to your leg?
me: -gives explanation-.
chong: how long you had this already?
me: about two months?
chong: two months?....
me: YEA. I WAS SITTING RIGHT BESIDE YOU IN THE HALL BEFORE JUNE HOLIDAYS STARTED. AND I WAS DEBATING WHETHER TO GREET YOU ANNOT CUZ IT WAS AWKWARD.
aft that i think he got paisei so he just left. omg teachers- what s wrong with them??
aft that mrs lim came to ask me. and the thing is, i sat beside her in the hall too =_= their brain ah, lag by one month LOL. her english was scary. she speaks like lee kuan yew lol.
music was okay luh. MTL also, cuz we slacked.
Math was o_o Ms Shakina hardcore sia, come in nia say " Class, next friday theres a test". And when she was told that there was a new student she just said one word to her -.-
had cca in the afternoon.
after cca wing + i came out, saw sarah yew and she only said hi to wing- completely, completely ignored my presence. used to it though, so i just walked off. it s like that most of the time nowadays.
[TUES]
Math in the morning. Hardcore.
had sci and the pedo walked in omg felt so weird. sci hardcore also.
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later in the afternoon leanne, the rest and i left about the same time. there were about 6 ppl in class when i left, and apparently no one noticed cuz i heard leanne from afar asking if my stuff were still in class. so i just shouted 'bye', a simple answer that says all.
I went to the arts consevatory, took in a deep breath. It s nice and silent there, i really like it. Then i lost myself to the piano. I orchestrated a piano version of The Man Who Cant Be Moved by the script, and sang as i played. progress wasnt bad- i managed to figure out the keys until the chorus.
Embarrassing thing was when i was singing quite loudly and bashing away on the piano Mdm Low walked in with 3 ang mohs omg. I stood up and stared at them.
"why are you sitting in the dark?" she asked. She turned on the lights. " Play something for us," she said. She and the 3 ang mohs looked at me expectantly.
I wrecked my mind and fumbled for an explanation.
this train terminates at the end of eternity. please, stand behind the yellow line.
Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end.
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Sunday, June 19, 2011
:/
i have so many words to say now, and I have no idea how to put it all into words: solidify and spin it out on the keyboard so that it appears as fabric on screen.
i ll be warning you first. it s about my brother again. he stayed over during the weekends, probably the last time before i wont see him again for another 6 months plus until school reopens.
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saturday night.
Me(thru sms): Eh u coming 2night? XD come leh at least once before holidays end... Cuz when school start you wont come for dam long. and i want try out dota.
him(6:04pm): i try.
me(6.15pm): wa you make coming here sound like war LOL
him(6.20pm): nah i with my sec 4 class.
realising that he was on a class outing, i didnt wanna disturb him and thus i didnt reply.
time passed.
7pm.
.
8pm.
.
9pm.
.
10pm.
he probably wont come, i told myself.
11pm
.
11:30pm.
.
..
...
My handphone rung.
"Hello?"
"Eh i coming now."
I glanced at the time and frowned. I wanted to be doubtful but there was a shimmer of hope in my voice. "It s so late. Are you.. Sure?"
He sighed. "Yesss...."
i was silent. He spoke again, as if to reassure me.
"Im coming."
"uh, okay. Bye."
thank you for proving me wrong.
he came, and we started dota ing straightaway. after a few matches, we started talking while we waited for the host to start the game.
me: eh how come you come so late?
bro: me and some my friends went to a friend s house after class outing.
me: wa do what?
bro: dota. we were supposed to stay overnight at his house and dota until morning but yea i came.
i was silent. Not because the host had finally started the game, but because he had sacrificed staying overnight with 6 other friends and playing com games til dawn just because i wished for him to come.
i immediately knew i had words to say, but i didnt have the courage to spit it out that night.
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[sunday]
at 11am, my mum shook me up. " Samuel and I going down to eat. You want to come? If not we buy back for you."
I slept at 3am the previous night, so i just snorted and turned the other way to continue sleeping.
But just then my bro came into the room. " Grunt wake up! Wake up! Go net enemy!"
(net is a dota term and we call each other grunt for some reason)
"Urgghhh....." But i thought of the sacrifice he made, so I decided to do my own sacrifice too- sacrifice my sleep xD
Thus I woke up, washed up, and went down for lunch with them.
---
I wanted to tell him things. I wanted to thank him for coming, because it made me happy; because it showed that I did matter.
I have a fear of losing my brother.
My mum helped us get the food because it was difficult for me to walk. My brother sat with me as my mum went to order his share.
She first went to get prawn mee for my brother. When she left, I gathered up all my courage to thank him, but my courage went out. You know, that feeling where you really want to do/say something and you have a sudden rush of adrenaline but you chicken out and loose that confidence in the end? Yea.
She came back with his noodles, and he started to eat. My mum then left to buy my bee hoon. We talked about dota as he ate and i waited, but my mind wasnt focusing much on what my bro was saying, because those words that i wanted to get out were bugging me. I ended up making him repeat what he d said several times... And yet my concentration still lacked.
My mum came back with my meal.
I still couldnt get out what I wanted to say.
I knew I didnt have much time left, I didnt want to say it while my mum was present because it ll just require more courage from me.
She left to buy her meal.
i ll be warning you first. it s about my brother again. he stayed over during the weekends, probably the last time before i wont see him again for another 6 months plus until school reopens.
---
saturday night.
Me(thru sms): Eh u coming 2night? XD come leh at least once before holidays end... Cuz when school start you wont come for dam long. and i want try out dota.
him(6:04pm): i try.
me(6.15pm): wa you make coming here sound like war LOL
him(6.20pm): nah i with my sec 4 class.
realising that he was on a class outing, i didnt wanna disturb him and thus i didnt reply.
time passed.
7pm.
.
8pm.
.
9pm.
.
10pm.
he probably wont come, i told myself.
11pm
.
11:30pm.
.
..
...
My handphone rung.
"Hello?"
"Eh i coming now."
I glanced at the time and frowned. I wanted to be doubtful but there was a shimmer of hope in my voice. "It s so late. Are you.. Sure?"
He sighed. "Yesss...."
i was silent. He spoke again, as if to reassure me.
"Im coming."
"uh, okay. Bye."
thank you for proving me wrong.
he came, and we started dota ing straightaway. after a few matches, we started talking while we waited for the host to start the game.
me: eh how come you come so late?
bro: me and some my friends went to a friend s house after class outing.
me: wa do what?
bro: dota. we were supposed to stay overnight at his house and dota until morning but yea i came.
i was silent. Not because the host had finally started the game, but because he had sacrificed staying overnight with 6 other friends and playing com games til dawn just because i wished for him to come.
i immediately knew i had words to say, but i didnt have the courage to spit it out that night.
---
[sunday]
at 11am, my mum shook me up. " Samuel and I going down to eat. You want to come? If not we buy back for you."
I slept at 3am the previous night, so i just snorted and turned the other way to continue sleeping.
But just then my bro came into the room. " Grunt wake up! Wake up! Go net enemy!"
(net is a dota term and we call each other grunt for some reason)
"Urgghhh....." But i thought of the sacrifice he made, so I decided to do my own sacrifice too- sacrifice my sleep xD
Thus I woke up, washed up, and went down for lunch with them.
---
I wanted to tell him things. I wanted to thank him for coming, because it made me happy; because it showed that I did matter.
I have a fear of losing my brother.
My mum helped us get the food because it was difficult for me to walk. My brother sat with me as my mum went to order his share.
She first went to get prawn mee for my brother. When she left, I gathered up all my courage to thank him, but my courage went out. You know, that feeling where you really want to do/say something and you have a sudden rush of adrenaline but you chicken out and loose that confidence in the end? Yea.
She came back with his noodles, and he started to eat. My mum then left to buy my bee hoon. We talked about dota as he ate and i waited, but my mind wasnt focusing much on what my bro was saying, because those words that i wanted to get out were bugging me. I ended up making him repeat what he d said several times... And yet my concentration still lacked.
My mum came back with my meal.
I still couldnt get out what I wanted to say.
I knew I didnt have much time left, I didnt want to say it while my mum was present because it ll just require more courage from me.
She left to buy her meal.
Cmon, christal, he s your brother for god s sake just spit it out because you know you want to! And you feel like shit now but if he goes back home later and you dont get it out you ll feel like shit for an even longer time.I felt like an inner force was pulling me into parts.
One more time, one more time
Im gonna roll just one more time
The voice in her head, the voice in her head
Screaming out the words that were left unsaid!
"Eh. Thanks for coming. It made me happy."
He stared at me, a laugh tugging at his lips. "Wa I didnt know such a small action and you feel touched lol."
I smiled. "It s the company of someone...."
He smiled too- an evil one. " Sounds like you need a boyfriend."
"WHAT THE HELL LA!!!" i smacked his shoulder as he curled away from my blow, laughing.
I soaked slightly in the moment's bliss. " When I mean company, I mean kinship."
"Huh. Then aunty ca-"
"I mean someone at my age luh... I mean, easier to talk to you know? There are things that adults dont seem to understand anymore."
He nodded, slightly thoughtful and smiling, as he went back to eating.
A wave of relief and peace washed over me. I felt good after finally getting my words out; the adrenaline was draining away from my veins, leaving only the little happiness behind.
Im gonna roll just one more time
The voice in her head, the voice in her head
Screaming out the words that were left unsaid!
"Eh. Thanks for coming. It made me happy."
He stared at me, a laugh tugging at his lips. "Wa I didnt know such a small action and you feel touched lol."
I smiled. "It s the company of someone...."
He smiled too- an evil one. " Sounds like you need a boyfriend."
"WHAT THE HELL LA!!!" i smacked his shoulder as he curled away from my blow, laughing.
I soaked slightly in the moment's bliss. " When I mean company, I mean kinship."
"Huh. Then aunty ca-"
"I mean someone at my age luh... I mean, easier to talk to you know? There are things that adults dont seem to understand anymore."
He nodded, slightly thoughtful and smiling, as he went back to eating.
A wave of relief and peace washed over me. I felt good after finally getting my words out; the adrenaline was draining away from my veins, leaving only the little happiness behind.
One last time, one last time,
Im gonna roll just one last time,
The voice in her head, the voice in her head,
Screaming out the words that were finally said
Will it ever end? This will be the end
Nobody knows what s lyin' ahead
So take just one last breath and
Let go!
Im gonna roll just one last time,
The voice in her head, the voice in her head,
Screaming out the words that were finally said
Will it ever end? This will be the end
Nobody knows what s lyin' ahead
So take just one last breath and
Let go!
He went back home after lunch.
It ll be another few long months ahead before I ll be seeing him again.
It ll be another few long months ahead before I ll be seeing him again.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
being random ;3
these maple vids are good(AND FREAKING COOL!?!?!). theres plenty others. hmm if youre ever bored go to my fb wall and just... idk, watch the vids. my wall is stuffed with vids LOL.
these vids are all done with Sony Vegas sighhh if only we learnt it in LSCEP....
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the following are 2 maple vids done with the song haru haru. good combo LOL.
haru haru reminds me of mohmoh cuz she was the one who introduced me to this song xD
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have to say, the ones done by AznBubbleGum(first vid and the one below) are better. omgpockii does good ones too and her style is similar to aznbubblegum's.
theres alot of other haru haru mmv s out there LOL.
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hmm... theres a korean vocaloid and ive heard one of her songs. shes not officially out yet so... but shes really good. theres depth and tone and emotion in her voice, so whoever who made this korean vocaloid, kudos to you. Cfm pawn all the other jap vocaloids like miku and gumi le LOL haiya.
Monday, June 13, 2011
a random sms convo,
with my brother.
just a little something to keep this blog 'alive'.
me: Dam luan zzz. BUT I LOVE DK AND DK LOVES ME WE HELP E/ OTHR ALOT <3 LOLOLOLOL. Why you neh online? Rkr today dam epic lol the way we died~
bro: i was outside...
me: *shot* Go where do what huhhh?
bro: ???
me: Go where luh
bro: kawaii imoutous[means little sis] dunt ask so much
me: 1. im not kawaii. ive been punished for vandalism on a classmate's arm and not doing homework ._.
2. You should have no fear in telling me where you went unless your guilty conscience is prickling at you.
3. There is no law to punish people for asking questions ._.
bro: U sound like a tsundere now <3
me: 4. I really dont prefer a weirdass gay brother who puts hearts behind sentences and goes... Nyaa. God even i cant say that aloud ew ._.
5. You are still avoiding the question -..-
bro: So late alry nya.. Go slp nya... U look cuter when u sleep nya <3
me: [thinking wtf] Please la I sleep so much later than you. Dont make me vomit blood. STOP NYAAING IT S SO GAY EW.
me: One more word for you: perv.
bro: Wat did ur innocent onee chan do?? oh btw... Nya
me: Pui. Your head la innocent onee chan. I shoot you in the foot then you know. Nya is for girls. What are you, a girl?
me: go on, deny your gender :>
bro: Srry god has no gender.
me: so you not guy not girl la -..-
bro: Ya... I m bishounen nya
me: eeyer. What s this your secret identity issit -..-
WHY DOES HE WANT TO PISS ME OFF OMG.
last time also not liddat haiz. oh well, whatever floats his boat.
ever since he got the nickname 'cat' he started to type out nya(but not say it in real life. thank god wait i slap him @_@)
that day when i went to watch kungfu panda with him and we were talking halfway through he was like "sonna?!" as in "sonna koto?!" in jap i think. Apparently it s a line that Tsuna(from KHR) often says.
hmm i asked him which female anime charac he liked best a few weeks back.
me: Oy. your exam finish le? And which anime female charac you like best? Just name it hor. Idc if she has big boobs or whatever LOL. Curious.
bro: No... Studying maths now... Zzz my sis asking mi tis kinda awkward...Who says big boobs r better?? Some ppl like flat ones lol
me: Wa when end sia your exam?
Just say la aiyo who?
Dont worry, im JUST ASKING, for god s sake why do all older brothers treat their younger sister like a freaking crime suspect tsk tsk
bro: Ok la its shana... Aw my kawaii innocent sis is growing up (=T-T=)
why must he keep calling me his 'kawaii sis' omg it doesnt even fit my image.
me: sure bo shana?
Two weeks back i sat ard, dislocated my knee cap. Now i cant walk properly and well,
missed allof my mid year exams.
Only took the compo one. And I dont have to retake MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA *spits out furball*
bro: EH?! Y nvr tell mi?? Zzz slacker... U cfm stay at home read yaoi manga rite. WAT WRONG WITH SHANA-CHAN!?
me: sian la u in sms like to act gay rite.
I telle u abt my injury u oso cnnt do anything rite... Come here glue my kneecap into place issit. Oh oh but wheelchairs are fun. You should try. I was rolling all ard the hospital.
No time read manga la! I dont like yaoi anyway. Too many rectangular guys o:
But why you like shana out of so many anime girls?
Dont give me the reason cute cuz technically all anime girls are supposedly cute.
bro: wa how u sit sia? Y u so epic de? I dunno but shes cute when shes jealous lol... And her deck is strong n fun to play but very ex...
me: i sit on the edge of everything.You prefer shana smiling or angry xpression? How bout when she fighting or normal?
Stupid bruno mars, who ask him go drag piano @_@
bro: normal n angry... onli thing i know bout bruno mars is one of his songs called fuck you lol
sigh. the mind of a guy. the rest was rambling between us 2.
the reason why i asked him about his fav anime charac was cuz i intend to draw something for him xD
hmm shana may be a bit hard to draw for me cuz im not used to the way her face is drawn. but im still gonna try -o-
shhh, dont tell him...
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oh. i may do a warcraft commentary too(for fun/give you guys an idea of how it s like); see how. if it lags the game then well, of course i cant.
i downloaded this random game called... Fashion.
Sia la why the name so lame.
i utilise my aunt's iphone space for her -_- or she ll never make use of 16MB.
Ok anyway if you do play somehow add me 'Materialllistic' as a neighbour.
better go sleep or i ll be killed if my aunt wakes.
just a little something to keep this blog 'alive'.
me: Dam luan zzz. BUT I LOVE DK AND DK LOVES ME WE HELP E/ OTHR ALOT <3 LOLOLOLOL. Why you neh online? Rkr today dam epic lol the way we died~
bro: i was outside...
me: *shot* Go where do what huhhh?
bro: ???
me: Go where luh
bro: kawaii imoutous[means little sis] dunt ask so much
me: 1. im not kawaii. ive been punished for vandalism on a classmate's arm and not doing homework ._.
2. You should have no fear in telling me where you went unless your guilty conscience is prickling at you.
3. There is no law to punish people for asking questions ._.
bro: U sound like a tsundere now <3
me: 4. I really dont prefer a weirdass gay brother who puts hearts behind sentences and goes... Nyaa. God even i cant say that aloud ew ._.
5. You are still avoiding the question -..-
bro: So late alry nya.. Go slp nya... U look cuter when u sleep nya <3
me: [thinking wtf] Please la I sleep so much later than you. Dont make me vomit blood. STOP NYAAING IT S SO GAY EW.
me: One more word for you: perv.
bro: Wat did ur innocent onee chan do?? oh btw... Nya
me: Pui. Your head la innocent onee chan. I shoot you in the foot then you know. Nya is for girls. What are you, a girl?
me: go on, deny your gender :>
bro: Srry god has no gender.
me: so you not guy not girl la -..-
bro: Ya... I m bishounen nya
me: eeyer. What s this your secret identity issit -..-
WHY DOES HE WANT TO PISS ME OFF OMG.
last time also not liddat haiz. oh well, whatever floats his boat.
ever since he got the nickname 'cat' he started to type out nya(but not say it in real life. thank god wait i slap him @_@)
that day when i went to watch kungfu panda with him and we were talking halfway through he was like "sonna?!" as in "sonna koto?!" in jap i think. Apparently it s a line that Tsuna(from KHR) often says.
hmm i asked him which female anime charac he liked best a few weeks back.
me: Oy. your exam finish le? And which anime female charac you like best? Just name it hor. Idc if she has big boobs or whatever LOL. Curious.
bro: No... Studying maths now... Zzz my sis asking mi tis kinda awkward...Who says big boobs r better?? Some ppl like flat ones lol
me: Wa when end sia your exam?
Just say la aiyo who?
Dont worry, im JUST ASKING, for god s sake why do all older brothers treat their younger sister like a freaking crime suspect tsk tsk
bro: Ok la its shana... Aw my kawaii innocent sis is growing up (=T-T=)
why must he keep calling me his 'kawaii sis' omg it doesnt even fit my image.
me: sure bo shana?
Two weeks back i sat ard, dislocated my knee cap. Now i cant walk properly and well,
missed allof my mid year exams.
Only took the compo one. And I dont have to retake MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA *spits out furball*
bro: EH?! Y nvr tell mi?? Zzz slacker... U cfm stay at home read yaoi manga rite. WAT WRONG WITH SHANA-CHAN!?
me: sian la u in sms like to act gay rite.
I telle u abt my injury u oso cnnt do anything rite... Come here glue my kneecap into place issit. Oh oh but wheelchairs are fun. You should try. I was rolling all ard the hospital.
No time read manga la! I dont like yaoi anyway. Too many rectangular guys o:
But why you like shana out of so many anime girls?
Dont give me the reason cute cuz technically all anime girls are supposedly cute.
bro: wa how u sit sia? Y u so epic de? I dunno but shes cute when shes jealous lol... And her deck is strong n fun to play but very ex...
me: i sit on the edge of everything.You prefer shana smiling or angry xpression? How bout when she fighting or normal?
Stupid bruno mars, who ask him go drag piano @_@
bro: normal n angry... onli thing i know bout bruno mars is one of his songs called fuck you lol
sigh. the mind of a guy. the rest was rambling between us 2.
the reason why i asked him about his fav anime charac was cuz i intend to draw something for him xD
hmm shana may be a bit hard to draw for me cuz im not used to the way her face is drawn. but im still gonna try -o-
shhh, dont tell him...
---
oh. i may do a warcraft commentary too(for fun/give you guys an idea of how it s like); see how. if it lags the game then well, of course i cant.
i downloaded this random game called... Fashion.
Sia la why the name so lame.
i utilise my aunt's iphone space for her -_- or she ll never make use of 16MB.
Ok anyway if you do play somehow add me 'Materialllistic' as a neighbour.
better go sleep or i ll be killed if my aunt wakes.
Friday, June 10, 2011
shall post this here cause im honestly really proud of it XD took me awhile to finish. used it for the LSCEP flash assignment.

this was the original one i had but the background made it hard for text to be seen. so i changed it.

though some of the text was still hard to see it was much better than the previous. the background behind the monsters looks half assed lol. was pushing for time.
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so, this. apparently there was a maple big bang event @ suntec. there were walking orange mushroom mascots.
with hands and freaking legs.
and a random cosplayer dressing up as some naruto/bleach thing 'chopping the mushroom' LOL. poor oj mushroom XD

looks reeeeeaaaaaaaally weird to me LOL. mushrooms... just dont have legs. especially maple orange mushrooms.
the yeti shoulda looked furrier and not full of fats LOL XD. uhh anyway.
i dont own the above photos.
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okay. thats it for this post.
back to rkr ing.

this was the original one i had but the background made it hard for text to be seen. so i changed it.

though some of the text was still hard to see it was much better than the previous. the background behind the monsters looks half assed lol. was pushing for time.
-

so, this. apparently there was a maple big bang event @ suntec. there were walking orange mushroom mascots.
with hands and freaking legs.
and a random cosplayer dressing up as some naruto/bleach thing 'chopping the mushroom' LOL. poor oj mushroom XD

looks reeeeeaaaaaaaally weird to me LOL. mushrooms... just dont have legs. especially maple orange mushrooms.
the yeti shoulda looked furrier and not full of fats LOL XD. uhh anyway.
i dont own the above photos.
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okay. thats it for this post.
back to rkr ing.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
more rkr ranting xD
omg so embarrassing i fb-ed the guy i met while rkr-ring last june ahhah the dood from st andrews.
well if i dont talk to him first it s not like he will talk to me so i must make the first move in this case @_@
he s a nice guy.
apparently there was some error when we tried to add e/ other on garena so yea this is the only way.

the thing why i dam paisei to talk to him is cuz.
he s quite...
good looking.
*coughfaintblushcough*
oh man did i just say that.
the other thing is, that zhengtian ah, dota whole day one until never alt+tab check the garena page when i talk to him. warcraft is fullscreen anyway, not surprising that he neh see =.=
sum random photo from yunnan internationalisation.
lourdes come back from camp soon~~~ my phone sms inbox kong kong one LOL.
btw i just recalled that time i brought my tpc to your house and showed you warcraft LOL you had mixed feelings about it maybe?
you should really see gameplay when rkr is fullhouse(all slots taken up by players). haha dam fun and needs alot teamwork and those other players can be quite funny.
added one new dude his id is like kxk98 or summin, idk why their id must be so machiney-sounding @_@
okay btw TheMeanKitty is doing daily vlogs of the cats Sparta and Loki on youtube.... do check it out and support! the cats are awesome. Cory(the owner) has a new channel too- DudeLikeHella, his own vlog thingy and yeah it s quite entertaining if youre bored. his wife dam chio and funny too xD
k bb.
katan-koton! chik chik chilli~
well if i dont talk to him first it s not like he will talk to me so i must make the first move in this case @_@
he s a nice guy.
apparently there was some error when we tried to add e/ other on garena so yea this is the only way.

the thing why i dam paisei to talk to him is cuz.
he s quite...
good looking.
*coughfaintblushcough*
oh man did i just say that.
the other thing is, that zhengtian ah, dota whole day one until never alt+tab check the garena page when i talk to him. warcraft is fullscreen anyway, not surprising that he neh see =.=
lourdes come back from camp soon~~~ my phone sms inbox kong kong one LOL.
btw i just recalled that time i brought my tpc to your house and showed you warcraft LOL you had mixed feelings about it maybe?
you should really see gameplay when rkr is fullhouse(all slots taken up by players). haha dam fun and needs alot teamwork and those other players can be quite funny.
added one new dude his id is like kxk98 or summin, idk why their id must be so machiney-sounding @_@
okay btw TheMeanKitty is doing daily vlogs of the cats Sparta and Loki on youtube.... do check it out and support! the cats are awesome. Cory(the owner) has a new channel too- DudeLikeHella, his own vlog thingy and yeah it s quite entertaining if youre bored. his wife dam chio and funny too xD
k bb.
katan-koton! chik chik chilli~
Monday, June 6, 2011
really rant post.
lol now matryoshka has an mmd though i kinda like the original better cuz vocaloid dancing seems a bit floppy for me o..o
the channels i subscribed to are uploading like mad these few days until i can never finish the vocaloid videos and they all vanish somewhere =..=
hmm im kinda training up my dota skills now. last time when i played the game i keep lagging behind my allies+enemies by a few levels. if i can solve that i should be able to play better without dying so much. and figure out what items i should buy for my hero. my bro told me to stick to one hero for now hmm sigh i wanna use the crystal maiden too but okay i ll stick to my shadow shaman.
for now i restrict myself to playing with the com AI but when im ready i ll have a dota match with zhengtian and my bro andd my bro s friend AHAHAHA it s gonna be epic playing with people i know. zhengtian alrdy added my bro as a buddy on garena but their timing all clash one so they nvr play tgt before =..= dota matches can take up to a few hours if it s a good game, so not surprising....
THEREFORE I TAKE IT UPON MYSELF TO BRING THOSE TWO TOGETHER.
sounds cheesy xD
hmm and it may end up linking to people like brandon and suthin and enstein(shit i forgot how spell his name LOL) and maybe even xiao yu then we can have a new town pri sch dota game xD
too bad all guys lol.
LOURDESSS WANNA TRY PLAYYY??
you ll say no probably =..=
idk how well warcraft will run on your mac since apparently stepmania has problems executing on your com @_@
but it s worth a try, if you want to. afterall ive seen people warcrafting on macs.
---
on fri after my physio my aunt, mum, bro and i went to watch kungfu panda 2 at plaza sing. it was aweshummm omg i love tigress she s so cool. the fighting s good too lol almost like final fantasy but animalised version o..o
then we went to otaku house and that was when i found out my bro had KHR tsuna's jacket and his earphone thing-the number 27 one WTH bernice spazz over hibari, lourdes over bel and now my brother over tsuna. Well i thought he used to like toushirou from bleach -.- oh well.
ohh and i saw the angel beats cosplay costume over there(the one yurippe wears) as well as the vamp knight day class uniform.
then the guy at the counter talked to my aunt and me about cosplaying culture cuz my aunt doesnt understand AND APPRECIATE SUCH AN AMAZING CULTURE. then he wuz like:
guy: oh this june theres cosfest-
me: 25-26 june, sat and sunday.
guy: ya. you should really go youknow*looks at my aunt*. it will really surprise you.
me: ya. at downtown east d marquee there.
aunt: *stares at both of us* soo.. do adults cosplay as well?
guy: yes of course! you will be surprised. there will be many good cosplayers there and performances and such.
aunt: hohh really... well i still dont understand these teenagers and their craze with all this japanese thing
(god i felt like smacking her @_@)
bro: er excuse me do you have tsuna's wig?
guy: this tsuna? *takes down a KHR keychain with tsuna's pict on it*
bro: -nods-
guy: okay hold on ah let me check.
aunt: can i see that? *gestures at keychain*
guy: oh sure.
aunt: -takes a look at the keychain and tsuna's pict and turns it around in her hand- *looks at bro* youre into this kind of stuff too?
bro: yaa....
(my aunt looks like she wants to vomit which in turn made me feel like smacking her more WHATS WRONG WITH COSPLAY?! you and your old thinking, more like.)
guy: sorry we dont have the tsuna wig..
bro: oh okay.
after that was a bit strange cuz the guy and i started talking about the EOY anime event and he was like 'ya ya ya you know that one too?' then i told him my school setting up a booth and i asked him to go and support then he just nodded and laughed =..=
the service that night was so much better than one afternoon when my aunt and i went to the Spotlight there to hunt for possible OM materials and we dropped by otaku house. the girl who was there was quite unfriendly + unhelpful =..=
tuh and somehow i recognise all the anime songs they play at otaku house so far LOL. that friday they played the spirited away ending song and some gundam seed destiny ending... a few weeks before there was the shugo chara kokoro no tamago opening shit.
wa suddenly after i typed all this i feel like sleeping xD
kk bb.
that sounded a bit vulgar lol
Friday, June 3, 2011
haiya
it ll be lovely to see you try more.
really.
it only seems like im the one trying to sms you/ talk to you/do idk what other stuff first.
like it s just me wanting to save this screwed up crap.
i dunno. just saying.
dont know what youre thinking.
i tell you something.
i tried distracting myself with...
a certain irritating art teacher.
seeeeeeee-dot.
yeah haha
go "oh godd"
but no i realised that s just dumb LOL
im so stupid.
it worked though.
for 2 days.
at least i tried.
yeah, i tried.
i tried my best.
as for the other c2 people reading this
DONT USE THE CERTAIN ART TEACHER TO POKE AT ME OKAY
dont poke at me with any teachers.
im as holey as it is.
pokebag.
count yourself lucky to know about this....
privileged info.
or something along that line.
and as for you, sheila, do stop being a nosey noisy pigeon =..=
nosey parker pigeon.
if only i can get the whole class to convince me with
good reasons,
that zoom is a....
a...
piece of shit.
YEAH.
SHIT.
SHITBAG.
HELP ME PEOPLE
LET S FLY TO ICELAND TOGETHER.
but theres one thing i think i deserve to know...
do you still like him?
maybe depending on your answer
i can figure out how to go about things as well.
be honest
please.
no 'i dont know' answers okay?
okay.
physiotherapy.
im going to see my brother later.
really.
it only seems like im the one trying to sms you/ talk to you/do idk what other stuff first.
like it s just me wanting to save this screwed up crap.
i dunno. just saying.
dont know what youre thinking.
i tell you something.
i tried distracting myself with...
a certain irritating art teacher.
seeeeeeee-dot.
yeah haha
go "oh godd"
but no i realised that s just dumb LOL
im so stupid.
it worked though.
for 2 days.
at least i tried.
yeah, i tried.
i tried my best.
as for the other c2 people reading this
DONT USE THE CERTAIN ART TEACHER TO POKE AT ME OKAY
dont poke at me with any teachers.
im as holey as it is.
pokebag.
count yourself lucky to know about this....
privileged info.
or something along that line.
and as for you, sheila, do stop being a nosey noisy pigeon =..=
nosey parker pigeon.
if only i can get the whole class to convince me with
good reasons,
that zoom is a....
a...
piece of shit.
YEAH.
SHIT.
SHITBAG.
HELP ME PEOPLE
LET S FLY TO ICELAND TOGETHER.
but theres one thing i think i deserve to know...
do you still like him?
maybe depending on your answer
i can figure out how to go about things as well.
be honest
please.
no 'i dont know' answers okay?
okay.
physiotherapy.
im going to see my brother later.
Thursday, June 2, 2011
rant post.
why is it so hard?
maybe im just not in the mood.
i dont know if im moving in the right direction now.
come on.
assure me.
if all that we re doing now
will just be another bobble,
i really dont see the point.
all that s left in me
is a vague sense of longing and a hollow tree trunk.
other than that,
i dont see the point in trying anymore.
do what you want~
theres no need anyway!~
go ahead.
just make sure i dont see you doing it.
that s the least you can do to stop things from deteriorating!~
are you happy now?
then i ll give this one to you.
a bird, a teddy, a furry bronze bear.
it takes one to give away one's happiness for another to be happy anyway.
i dont think i have the energy anymore.
no more isotonic drinks.
it doesnt seem like you are.
it seems more like me.
and you said it was you.
you, me, and what army?~
dettol encourages you to wash your hands regularly.
youre not.
it s tiring for me, dont you get it?
urgh.
do something, like in the animes.
and you
stop coming near me.
im already trying to forget you in that way
so stop making things harder
you assholeeffingshittythunderbolting piece of nicompoopery.
oh no?
maybe the one who s a nicompoop is me.
and for you
stop stuffing shit into my already confounded mind.
"youre made for each other"
"he always does this"
"he always does that"
"and it s always for you"
you suspect.
so what?
the happiness coming from this
will only be short-lived.
vile poison.
wretched heart.
you fool around with others.
so.
mind.
heart.
cant you see the truth?
you witnessed it too, didnt you?
dumbass.
i own a dumbass heart and mind.
say it out.
spit it into my face.
vile heart
wretched poison.
hi, how are you.
today it should rain.
imagination should be blue
hate should be pink.
bullets should be purple, colour of the rainbow.
your eyes should be white
colour of blindness
your hands should be claws
claws and crutches
meat is butchered
butchery is murder
yonder
yonder cant you see?
the farthest side
is not meant for me.
kick it panda
make the monkeys fly.
rain rain
splash whomp.
crickets creak and creep
blood clumps and clots
splish splosh
morning fall
winterainfalle
youtube channels
and ray william johnson.
comes every month.
365 days
sodium bicarbonate of the thousandth galaxy
since when has the light died out from your eyes?
the song speaks notes from the heart.
edward with the rats and smoke cigars
shiny dukes and casino cars
a jet-packing dive is all i need
giving it up for the broadway stage
take me on, fly me to mars.
eclipse cool and minty.
shake shake shake
there is a new lemon flavour.
a mind encumbered with trivial and useless information.
a mayfly in may
jonas in june
jams in january
fickle floo powder in february
merry micky in the canadian march
avril in april
aw man.
they scored a goal.
the league sucks
"dont suck my blood" she shouted at her son.
a thick book, the reluctance to buy.
a 1000-paged book
chock full with memories
winter and rain
the reluctance to buy
to touch
which is my side?
live out your higher calling
you and me, rendezvous?
children of the rainbow
grasslands of the sun
you live on the opposite side of the moon
deep dark shadowy worlds.
dewdrops on the cranberry fields
cucumber viruses
tomatoes cannot be eaten raw
out into the open seas
torchlights and lamps.
misty waters and beardy captains.
the bermuda triangle
can we get lost now?
change the u into a j.
gesundheit.
im just a crazy, patched up matryoshka!
mou, hanasanaide.
still you will anyway.
go on
talk about me
behind my back
a whisper of the violin strings.
a growl and a smile
the cat leaps for your URL.
when the air dies
you minus ten
and it ll turn dark
sparkle
sparkle!
shampoo bottle.
a growl and a smile
the cat leaps for your URL.
maybe im just not in the mood.
i dont know if im moving in the right direction now.
come on.
assure me.
if all that we re doing now
will just be another bobble,
i really dont see the point.
all that s left in me
is a vague sense of longing and a hollow tree trunk.
other than that,
i dont see the point in trying anymore.
do what you want~
theres no need anyway!~
go ahead.
just make sure i dont see you doing it.
that s the least you can do to stop things from deteriorating!~
are you happy now?
then i ll give this one to you.
a bird, a teddy, a furry bronze bear.
it takes one to give away one's happiness for another to be happy anyway.
i dont think i have the energy anymore.
no more isotonic drinks.
it doesnt seem like you are.
it seems more like me.
and you said it was you.
you, me, and what army?~
dettol encourages you to wash your hands regularly.
youre not.
it s tiring for me, dont you get it?
urgh.
do something, like in the animes.
and you
stop coming near me.
im already trying to forget you in that way
so stop making things harder
you assholeeffingshittythunderbolting piece of nicompoopery.
oh no?
maybe the one who s a nicompoop is me.
and for you
stop stuffing shit into my already confounded mind.
"youre made for each other"
"he always does this"
"he always does that"
"and it s always for you"
you suspect.
so what?
the happiness coming from this
will only be short-lived.
vile poison.
wretched heart.
you fool around with others.
so.
mind.
heart.
cant you see the truth?
you witnessed it too, didnt you?
dumbass.
i own a dumbass heart and mind.
say it out.
spit it into my face.
vile heart
wretched poison.
hi, how are you.
today it should rain.
imagination should be blue
hate should be pink.
bullets should be purple, colour of the rainbow.
your eyes should be white
colour of blindness
your hands should be claws
claws and crutches
meat is butchered
butchery is murder
yonder
yonder cant you see?
the farthest side
is not meant for me.
kick it panda
make the monkeys fly.
rain rain
splash whomp.
crickets creak and creep
blood clumps and clots
splish splosh
morning fall
winterainfalle
youtube channels
and ray william johnson.
comes every month.
365 days
sodium bicarbonate of the thousandth galaxy
since when has the light died out from your eyes?
the song speaks notes from the heart.
edward with the rats and smoke cigars
shiny dukes and casino cars
a jet-packing dive is all i need
giving it up for the broadway stage
take me on, fly me to mars.
eclipse cool and minty.
shake shake shake
there is a new lemon flavour.
a mind encumbered with trivial and useless information.
a mayfly in may
jonas in june
jams in january
fickle floo powder in february
merry micky in the canadian march
avril in april
aw man.
they scored a goal.
the league sucks
"dont suck my blood" she shouted at her son.
a thick book, the reluctance to buy.
a 1000-paged book
chock full with memories
winter and rain
the reluctance to buy
to touch
which is my side?
live out your higher calling
you and me, rendezvous?
children of the rainbow
grasslands of the sun
you live on the opposite side of the moon
deep dark shadowy worlds.
dewdrops on the cranberry fields
cucumber viruses
tomatoes cannot be eaten raw
out into the open seas
torchlights and lamps.
misty waters and beardy captains.
the bermuda triangle
can we get lost now?
change the u into a j.
gesundheit.
im just a crazy, patched up matryoshka!
mou, hanasanaide.
still you will anyway.
go on
talk about me
behind my back
a whisper of the violin strings.
a growl and a smile
the cat leaps for your URL.
when the air dies
you minus ten
and it ll turn dark
sparkle
sparkle!
shampoo bottle.
a growl and a smile
the cat leaps for your URL.
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WISHES~:
-more notebooks XD (A4 please)
-for everyone to be happy.
-more notebooks XD (A4 please)
-for everyone to be happy.