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hais. i cant find any time to post nowadays. i just got onto the com 5 mins ago and now im being told to turn it off D:
i have quite alot of stuff to ramble about though XD
shall find some time before school reopens D:
dont even have time to rkr nowadays. i wanna try out the lunar paradise map online with other players; see if it works. everything is in spanish but oh who cares.


-kamineko
[this is probably like the shortest post ever >_>]

just a small thingy...

Merii Kurisumasu to all you people out there :3

I know im kinda late, but now is better than never :3

Theres some people I would like to thank especially. :3

It s quite a long list actually. For me. :o

And im checking it twice :3

Thank you lourdes and wing, for always reading my blog. And tagging(though wing you stopped recently) :3

[Dear wing, I know that zoom has always strained our friendship D:

But that wont stop happening til' I stop liking him. D:

So please do tolerate it D:

Gomenasai.

I wish I didnt have to put you through this. >__<]

[Dear Lourdesu, thanks for always(and Im saying like, always always) being there :3

Sometimes I cant help but feel that youre the only one I can connect to anymore. >_>

I hope that wont change.

It may though. No one knows.

But at least we both know that the memory of that will never fade away :3]

And of course, dear priscilla.

[Ive felt like ive known you since my past life. XD

Well you know what I ll say to you.

So you keep those words inside you. :3]

And a special little thanks goes to vineeth :3

[Hello Vineeth.

I have to admit youre one of the weirdest weirdasses Ive met this year.

Take that as a compliment kayzxc Im serious :3

But thanks for making me laugh alot :3

Dont stop making people laugh kay.

Not everyone has the talent to do that.]

Plus Zecheng.

[Hello weirdass number 2 ive met a long time ago. =3=

Youre a strange dood. o_o

(im not sorry that youre getting strange thank-you notes kay XD)

But somehow it feels like youre my little bro.

Im not shy when I talk to you, and thats rare for when Im communicating with guys.

Anyway, thanks for being that irritating little dood whos nice to piss off XD

I PROMISE YOU WE LL GO DDR ONE DAY D:]

Andd Clarissa and Sheila(im sorry if I didnt get your name right sheila XD)

[Thanks for being strange maplestory partners :}

As well as being nosey neighbours who always wanna know which and what kinda guy I currently like XD

You two are 100% jellygops. XD]

And of course my brother :D.

[If by some strange miracle you visit my blog,

just wanna say thanks for being my brother.

i remember that time long ago when i was crying,

you just sat beside me and stared at me until i stopped.

you weirdass.

But I

Love you. (and no i cant say that in real life i dont have the guts im sorry >_>) as a brother of course XD

You ll always be that wonderful asshole of a grunt, too :3

and promise me that no matter what happens to our stupid parents, dont leave me k. pinky promise.]

There are plenty more people Id like to thank, but I obviously dont have all the space in cyberspace to type it all out ;D

Anyway, probably half of the people Ive mentioned above dont even read my blog, Im sure.

But my special thanks still goes to all of you, regardless of who you are, who have bothered talking to me, listening to me andd reading my blog.

Im not an easy person to tolerate.

I ll frankly tell you Im temperemental as well. I do try to hide it though. Wonder if Im doing well.

But Im sorry if Ive exploded at any of you this year.

>_>

Oh and please do drop a tag if you pass by. Id appreciate it. Especially if youre one of those who's been reading my blog but you just dont tag. I ll thank you properly ;D

It s cold today.

-kamineko

Birdy birdy

holy shit i love this parrot XD the bird's name is lolita and shes hilarious XD.

-kamineko

Yay AMV?

okay so er, here s the AMV ive been working on for 3 days[sorry if it seems kinda laggy... decoder's fault =3=]... Please do comment on it! Oh and er, dont try to read the subs, cause it s best if you focus on the picts themselves XD.

I couldnt find the raw versions of the animes/anime movies, so I had to make do with these subbed ones.

Enjoy :d

Animes/ Anime Movies involved: Angel Beats!, Howl's Moving Castle, 5cm per Second, Spirited Away.

Music: She Is(instrumental)-Clazziquai

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE ABOVE STATED ANIMES/ANIME MOVIES OR SONGS; JUST REARRANGED THEM TO CREATE A FAN-MADE VIDEO FOR MY FAVOURITE ANIMES AND ANIME MOVIES.

-kamineko

i really like you.

tell me to stop, please.

it s so tiring.

you fill my mind

every single day

every single waking hour.

under my eyelids, there you stand.

there you run

there you play.

even in my sleep

you lurk

you haunt

in my land,

i see you atop a mountain

i see you riding the clouds

i see you across the oceans

your shadow never fails to fall across mine.

why do i always find myself overlapping you?

youre an addictive
drug

i cant live without

my life was cold and
hard

but you

came along

and with a drop of honey, salt
and sugar

you softened my life

as if

as if

it was something you did
everyday.

ice

fire

you are both these
elements.

freezing my heart

so that it stops only for
you

burning my emotions

so that only you can
control

im obsessed with you

so lost

so confused

show me the way

lead me out of here

i want to escape

from your labyrinth.

why wont you let me out?

let me out

let me

let

me

out.

please

p

l

e

a

s

e

im begging you.

cant you see?

it puzzles me

it s really strange

how youre so oblivious to my obvious affection.

your eyes

your ears

your heart

your soul

i want it all

i want them all

i want to own it all

i want to own them all.

why wont you...

let me?

let me LeT Me lEt mE LET ME l e t m e l.e.t. m.e.!

i wanna be your eyes

your ears

your heart

a fragment of your shadow

a part of your soul

i want to be it all

i want to be them all

i want this to be all.

let me go.

i want to escape.

do you know how it feels?

to be trapped in someone elses' maze

unable to get out?

i want to spread my wings and fly

i want to forget you

but why cant i?

get out

out of the door

out of the lift

out of my heart

out of my mind

get out

out out out

but still

you

dig your way down to my heart

and the exit caves in behind you

your smile

akin to the sunlight that filters through my window

your kindness

something i cant run away from

your laugh

echoes to me from afar

it lifts my heart

drawing me near

drawing me close

closer to you

i want to be closer to you

i cant help myself.

stop me for me, please?

who were you

to barge into my life

uninvited?

who were you

to occupy so much space

in my heart's thumbdrive?

can i recycle you?

trash you?

can i punch you?

can i smack you?

can you stop me?

youre the only one who can

and yet

my heart denies

it forever wages a war with my mind

what s right

what s wrong

what s black

what s white.

is there a grey?

i dont know

i really dont.

does the answer lie deep within you?

but someday, i want you to know my feelings.

hopefully, you can return them too?

can i laugh at my insanity?

obsessioneity.

i want to stop.

and you

you

you are the only one

who has the power

to stop my heart.

-kamineko

Everybody's leaving and i dont feel the same

Wing s going to malaysia and coming back on the 22nd.
Lourdeh's coming back on the 23rd
XD
I ll be lonely in between cause no one else spams me as much as these two.

---

Ive been thinking about the stuff that happenned between him and me(i know i make it sound like ALOT has happenned haha but not really :/) for this whole year.
After that i feel like banging myself for all my reactions.
Geezus.


Eriku-sama and my brother share the same birthday.
My birthday will fall on a monday next year. Sad. i hate Mondays.

I want him to wish me happy birthday.
But im afraid that it falls on New Year's or New Year's Eve and he cant wish me.
You know.
Cant see his smile and all.
Oh well.

I created a new word.
Obsessioneity.
Obsessioneity sucks.
It makes you think too much.
Way too much.

-kamineko

[a drop of honey, salt and sugar]

Poreotics!

My favourite dance crew :D

Korean dancers are good too but I like Poreotics' like... lag-effect and some of their really unique dance moves.

Im not a professional dancer so i dont know how im supposed to describe dance moves XD

---

but i was really happy when i found this vid by nigahiga(he s aweshum too; dam hilarious) that features Poreotics

-kamineko

[if i have enough brain cells i ll create a -Zoom X Kuristallu- SMS romance novel AHAH]

[cant wait to send the first story to Lourdeh.]

[Pris'll punch me if i send her the story]

["WHY ISSIT SO MUSHY?!" she d say :3]

[he s addictive.]

[very.]

"I ll forget that punch."

"It didn't hurt?"

"No, it didn't."

"You want me to punch you
again?"

"NO. Thanks."

"I'm just here to accomapny you."

Skyline

Dion: see i got so many salonpas
Me: >_> why you use salonpas? why you old woman ah whole body ache
-dion plucks off 2 of the salonpas plasters from the back of her neck-
Dion: i dunno leh my family use salonpas then i use also lor. After netball my whole body ache like shit.
Me: eh wait you were in CHIJ kellogg(shit how spell) right?
Dion: ya. for secondary school i DSA to CHIJ toa payoh through netball. actually i got DSA to crescent but too far for me LOL i lazy.
Me: ehhh LOL i got DSA to CHIJ toa payoh through art lol but too far for me oso.
-strange silence for 5 secs-
Me: Oh by the way do you know chen xi? from kellogg?
Dion: OH YA THAT ONE WHOLE DAY STONE AND STARE ONE RIGHT
Me: YA YA YA THAT ONE
-both of us demo chen xi's staring to each other LOL-
-i laughed first-
Mr Chin(tuition cher): you two know each other? -indicating dion and me cause dion just joined the tuition class-
me: ehhhhhhh no?
Mr Chin: you both seem very close
-dion and i laughed at the same time and say no la at the same time-

haha christ.
wish zoom and i had that kinda... telepathy thingy. or a huge amount of coincidence.
i love tuition. i feel like i belong there. and i feel as if im more accepted there than i am at crescent.
when i walk into tuition there are actually people who are happy to see me.
rachael and debbie were like CHRISTALLLL!!! when i walked in and they were flailing their hands at me.

you dont have to read the paragraph in the xtremely small text. nothing exciting there. just had to ramble somewhere.

you know?
that feeling?
it s nice to feel treasured.
you dont feel aimless. or like a wandering soul.
maybe thats why im so attached to pri school...
going to school felt meaningful back then. I looked forward to going to school.
xiao yu would always pull my chair out for me when i walked in on rainy days back in p5. sometimes he d help me put my dripping umbrella at the back of class.
cornelius always said good morning to me when i walked in. he d give me his crooked smile though his eyes still had the sian look to them and comment on my hair sometimes. id return the favour.
lourdes and jue ying are always there ready to lend an ear to whatever shit i had to spill.
theyd always be ready to sing with me when i wanted to :3
priscilla would wave from the other class.
"yellow," she d mouth. id mouth back "pineapple crunch!' and then we d give each other an air smack.
id frown at suthin's monkey face.
zheng tian always comes to me when im unhappy and asks "who make you sad? i beat him for you."
when brandon helped the chers return worksheets he d always put a worksheet on my table and say "yours." id flip it around and he d laugh and say "no la not yours why you take tsk" and i fell for this trick every time.
shelly, lourdes, moh moh, jue ying and i would visit the cats.
we d buy cat food and feed calico, cocoa and C.H.
shelly'd give me her magazines if i popped by her house.
pris, faye, zt and i would talk late into the night(2 am-ish) with MSN group converssations, and we d laugh over silly things we did.
and faye and i got pris to confess.
and i ended up telling zt who zombie was.
and we found out faye liked jy.
and we found out that zt and xx were TOGETHER.
zecheng, ajay, cherry and i would always compete for the highest marks in english haha... id still win them :3
then pris, faye, zt and xx were my blog regulars... now it s mostly only wing and L.
there s a shitload more.
maybe that s why i dont like crescent cause what i was used to facing in pri sch was so different.
"take crescent as the real world," my brother had said. he d smiled reassuringly after that. "i can help you in amath, too."

then again....
maybe it s just me.

i think im complaining too much.
but i want my old life back.
i know im clinging too hard onto it.
it s not gonna get me anywhere.
soredemo boku wa....
stil i...

---------------------------------
So on mundaye wing, leanne and i went to West Mall and DDR-ed. It was cool, but tiring. Good way to exercise though, especially for someone like me. After we -danced- we went to eat KFC and gained fats again :3
pro.
Leanne has a different way of standing on escalator steps, i noticed.
After that about 5-ish i went to dhoby ghaut to meet my aunt and uncle LT(who just returned from US) and we went to MBS. not bad. the scenery was a wow-factor.
Then after that we went to eat at a pub.
Pub.
PUB.
i thought i was underage to enter one but my aunt said they served food, so it was okay.
It was freaking dark in there.
I strained my eyes to read the menu and ordered something called Bangers and Mash.
I was wondering what bangers was, and i realised it was sausages. Nothing strange, thank god.
Cause a few days back my aunt insisted i try eating snails.
Escargots.
ACTUALLY THEY TASTE NICE.
They are...
Chewy.
And
chewy.
I ate mine with cheese ;3

Oh well back to the pub. I commented that it looked like hell's restaurant LOL. it did cause the walls has designs of clouds- but they were reddish mixed with this bleh shade of orange.
dinner was nice.
after that uncle LT asked me if i wanted anything from the US and i was like
"oh hayao miyazaki's spirited away it s from ghibli studios and oh castle in the sky and howl s moving castle is really good too and any other movies from the ghibli studios and joe hisaishi he s a musician yeah his music pieces are great like kuchuu sanpo and ryuu no shounen and this thing called dance dance revolution yaknow yaknow the tv version yeah but dont get that if it s too ex i think theres a disney version of it i dont think i want that cause it looks lame-"

at the end of it he looked really bonked out so he gave me a piece of paper and said "write down what you just said" and i was like zzz so i wrote it down but left out DDR.. didnt wanna be greedyy.

-----

today after tuition i went to tiong and ate sakae sushi with fish :3
after dinner my wallet was empty =..=
andd i owe fish $9 (my aunt nevah give me enough money for the tuition fees so i had to take from my dinner money D:)
andd i owe wing $6.50... right?
it feels strange to be on a loan....
i seldom borrow money.
oh well bad habits tend to arise during the hols. for me =...=

shall stop rambling.

-kamineko

[you, your fragile heart and what army]

DDR!

Dance Dance Revo. Holy cow watch them dance.

It s obviously practiced but really aweshum nonetheless

-kamineko

Mish Mash

So today was basically:
-Meet pris at jurong east int. 2.20p.m.
-Tried to take a cab to JY's school- Commonwealth Sec, but the taxi stand queue too long and got 0 cabs =..=
-Take mrt train to Lakeside station and got onto a cab there cause got no queue at all and cab waiting time much shorter AHAHA we smartass :3
-Reached her school at about 2.50. The choir concert we were attending started at 2.30 =.=
-Commonwealth Sec's choir was blocking the entrance into the auditorium cause they were going to sing next and we were like SHIT how to go in.
-Then got TWO NICE C'WEALTH SEC GUYS WERE LIKE "Are you attending the C'est La Vie concert?"
-We said " ya." Duh.
-Then we go the ticket counter thingy and showed them our tickets. There was some lame lucky draw thing and I got a bag. Pris got some stationery but she told the people at the counter that she didnt want them.
- I assure you they were like WTH GOT FREE THING YOU DONT TAKE.
-I wanted to tell her "eh eh you help me take leh dowan gimme i collect trash one" but i decided not to be greedy :3
-went into the auditorium, burning from embarrassment cause we were under speculation from the CSS choir stoning outside.
-sat near the door. south view primary was singing. they very cute XD
-aft they finish was CSS turn to sing. then JY walk in and i was like "JUE YINGGG!!!!!" BUT SHE NEVER HEAR D:
-some songs included Kimi Nosete by Joe Hisaishi from Castle in the Sky(another Ghibli animation -heartzxc- and about 3 more Jap songs.
-Pris was babbling about how cute the guy sitting behind us was.
- I told her she had her dyllie already, cannot look at other guys :3
-We considered going to IMM to eat sushi tei but I got no time cause i was going to visit Lourdesss.
-Rush back to commonwealth station then rush to Lourdes' house. Adrienne was in too :D
- Sang Campanella[GUMI], Spice {Len Kagamine} and Go Google It (Gakupo + Luka). Three of us sit in her house talk talk talk XD
(the one smiling at cam is adrienne, the one looking away is lourdes XD)
-Aft awhile we go buy bubble tea/slurpee. Adrienne took a slurpee, Lourdes got a cuppucinno[shit how spell] and i got a chocolate oreo ice-blended :3
-We go the playground near the ulu ulu train tracks there(post some vids another day).
-Saw a cat.
-Black and white cat.
-Pat cat.
-Go walk along the train tracks.
{you can see from here that if the train came i mati le}


{this 2 ppl also will die with me}



but we never die la.
Sad right T..T



4/12/2010
This was at Lourdes' HDB block. There was a discarded mattress and this cat was on it. Oh and by the way the sign says DANGER(you cant see it in the photo). saw this when i was going home with adrienne.
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FRIDAY
TO SEE THE LIGHTS.

Orchard road got this gay christmas tree.
I went inside it.
Im serious.
watch the vid




ION orchard lor. Place for rich freaks.

Inside ION Orchard lor. Place for rich freaks.

AH see food republic. Here for not-so-rich freaks.

Nice lighting. No offence but Dick Lee's designs for some of the previous christmas lightups sucked. Big Time

This one random la. My brother playing Doom 3. Nothing scary cause my cam suck.

Have some leftover vids. I ll post another day :3
3.06 am


=kamineko

stareedusterr

Starduster by Miku. Amazing. I like Mimu's version too.

Vocaloid voices just get more real over time.

-kamineko

Videeyo poste~

I was thinking it was time to post LOL but I cant bother myself to type out text. Therefore Ive gathered up some old vids from my old phone on XX's bday celebration last year at the ulu commonwealth place. Enjoyzxc(though im not sure what there is to enjoy about for you -3-)!


This is faye and cherry scrambling up the hill at the ulu place XD
DONT ASK ME WHY THERE WERE MONKEY-LIKE SOUNDS AT THE END. THAT WAS PRIS =..=

The crazy woman stamping on the bench is xx. Halfway through pris keep asking me help her open the plastic wrapped over the plates then there was alot of scrambling LOL when i passed her my cam. Then when i passed shelly the plates she was like "thank you mao" and i SWEAR I HAD GOOSEBUMPS CAUSE SHE CALLED ME THAT WAY.
But now that i listen to it it just gets kinda nostalgic luh so okayy...


-kamineko.

PageOne zxc

Heh wing Id promised to show you how Pageone looks like... Well actually photography isnt allowed in there so i had to be content taking picts of the surroundings.... So this is harbourfront.


That s sentosa on the opposite shore. Last time when the rollercoaster in Universal Studios was still operating youd be able to see it from Vivocity(the mall pageone is in) on clear days.



the-person-you-know-who-went-with-me-to-pageone and myself. XD


These are... books. LOL wtf was i supposed to say?

Nice view from the bookstore as Id said XD

This is what you ll see on top of Vivo. How should I explain it XD

Well... Yeah.

That day she (i cant say her name or she ll kill meh T.T) and i went to pageone we were flipping through psychology books that help you tell:

-whether this person is interested in you

-whether this person is lying.

-whether this person cant stand you

oh yeah and while i was going through these books... HE was on my mind the whole time. Right, the-person-who-doesnt-wish-to-be-named?

____________________________________________

why does this vocaloid song remind me of some chinese poem @_@
hover over the vid for titles ^..^


by the way lourdes... I NOW HAVE AN IMAGINARY CAT NAMED EMMARTEE. HE HAS BROWN-WHITE FUR AND HAS A NICE LONG TAIL THAT HE LIKES TO SMACK ME WITH.
IF YOU THINK ABOUT EMMARTEE'S NAME HARD ENOUGH YOU LL SEE THE TRUE WORD HIDDEN BEHIND IT XD

...

-kamineko

Some stuffffe

ripped off from L's blog XD

this is by miku- Truth and lies

oh and the following is a nice anime you should watch... to bad the whole anime is only 15 mins long XD

the youtube clip for the anime im posting here is 10 mins only, so you can go look for the last 5 mins of it if you like the anime XD

ripped it off L's blog too XD

[Animatrix: Beyond]

Love Disease by ruka. halfway through when they show ruka whole was quite scary cause at the starting they only zoomed in to a part of her face and hands XD

Music Box of Time also by Luka XD

Video spazzm.

another really humorous raywilliamjohnson vid.... though maybe slightly creepy for ya. DO WATCH IT. ESP, YOU, LOURDES XD. you havent watched his vids before yet, right??

ok so the following is another one of my vocaloid catches.

english translation:

Christmas trees decorating the town
People passing by me seem to be having fun...
"Let's go home together." As I repeated what you had said,
A little black cat meowed like he was comforting me

I don't know how special today is
But I feel a tightening in my chest
The neon lights I'm looking at are blurry

"Merry Christmas"
I mumbled to myself and saw my white breath
Under the gray sky I'm standing frozen without a word

In the room all alone I seek you on the bed
I hold tight the sheets so that I can smell you a bit

"It'll take a little more time...I'm sorry."
At the moment I saw your text,
All letters on the screen became blurry

"Father Christmas, where are you?"
I mumbled to myself and saw my white breath
You know who you should put in my big stocking

The sound of the door opening
The familiar sound of shoes
I dashed without thinking

Through the cold coat I could feel your warmth
I won't let go of you even if you ask

"Merry Christmas"
The candle we lighted is gradually burning
As our night silently goes on

Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas

This post is for wing ~~~

I seemed to be suffering from an excess number of brain cells again, so this morning I sat down and let my brain cells run around in my brain. And this is what i imagined for you, Wing. The scenery in my imagination does not exist in real life XD

Dont worry nothing sick :D


-mrl comes into class after school...-

MRL: Chan Qing... May i talk to you for a moment...



CQ: Er, sure.

-classmates whistle-


-mrl and you gives them the look-

CQ: I dont think we can talk here.


MRL: Neither do I.



CQ: How bout we go to the cafe at the corner of the avenue?


MRL: okay let s go.


-there is silence as you both walk there. Thank god it s only a 5 mins walk to save you the awkwardness.-

-at the cafe, mrl pulls out the chair for you to sit down. You gracefully take your seat and give a dry cough.-



MRL: look... There s something really important I have to say.


-You look him straight in the eye, clasping your hands together to hide your nervousness.-


CQ: Okay...



-mrl glances up at you before he looks back down at the table-



MRL: Actually... I'm....


-he shifts uncomfortably-

-your shoulders stiffen-



CQ: Yes????



MRL: I'm....

-he sighs-

















MRL: Chan Qing... I'm your uncle.

Sun-day

I realised my library books were due yesterday, so i rushed down to the library to return them (sorry Lourdes IF ONLY YOU WERENT IN MALAYSIA. I DONT KNOW WHY I MISS YOU AHAHAHA. Realised we actually talk quite alot o.O).

So i brought my TPC along and did some haku vocaloid fanart there. Havent started on her skin yet :/ I totally forgot how her eyes looked like and what their colour was so i drew from my own creation of her. And i changed her greyish hair colour to some firey mix of orange, red and yellow, so it looks a bit er, strange right now.
{preview}

~

My brother didnt come last weekend. Oh well, I cant stop him from not coming.


Priscilla, he really really really looks like Dylan.
One day I shall get them to stand tgt and take a cute pict with both of the guys having a -wtf- look on their faces XD

-kamineko

[christmas is cominggg!!! ive always liked christmas.]

[too bad it doesnt snow here.]

[but somehow]

[it feels that my aunt s gonna screw up all my happy-fluffy-nostalgic feeling about christmas...]

F6783h

this song is by one of the vocaloids, Haku. Though im not a fan of the song itself(not my style), the storyline is very good. And i like the drawings as well.

Watch it :3

Out-ing

My gramps was admitted to hospital recently, so aunt m and aunt c were on leave.
I didnt visit my gramps though, only my aunts did, because my gramps failed to recognize me 3 years back and it has been that way ever since.
I dont think he can recognize my cousins either :/

Oh well anyway, after my aunts visited the hospital, they drove back and picked my gran and me out for dinner.

We were towards the end of our meal and i was sipping my mango crushed ice yakult while we were talking.


Aunt C: Ya so you must make use of your tuition teacher. Ask him those questions that you dont how to do. $80 per month is money okay...

Aunt M: But he treated you to mcdonalds right?? -looks at me-

Me: Huh? -confused for the moment-

Aunt C: No la that one is her school math teacher.

Me: -thinking: oh shit dont talk about mr tan again la walao... WHY EVERYONE SO OBSESSED WITH HIM AH?!-

Aunt M: Ohh. What s your school math teacher's name?

Me: -chokes on drink and coughs - Er, Mr Tan. Tan Yew Hock.

Aunt M: I see... He seems nice... -smiles-

Me: -raises eyebrows- Er I shall go to the toilet now. -avoid topic XD-


-kamineko

[why cant i have peaceful dinners without the mentioning of some random cher?!?!?!]

Visite

I was playing RKR with zheng tian and other online players today.

I met this guy.

He s 13.

From Singapore.

He s Chinese.

He s from St Andrew's Sec(all male sch).

He s Christian.



HE WAS NICE AND I WANTED TO ADD HIM ON GARENA AND WE AGREED TO EXCHANGE FB INFO AFTER THAT BUT SOMETHING SCREWED UP

and i lost him.

I played about 10 rounds of RKR with him, and he saved me alot when id died.

I got all of the above info about him when another player asked me for my age when i mentioned i was a girl.

And I said my age is under 14.

Then the St Andr. guy was like "O.o im 13."

Then i was like "god, same."

"whd sch u frm??" i asked.

"st andrew sec"

"you?"

"crescent" i laughed. he must be thinking y i frm crescent play warcraft XD

"wa"

haha that was how it began but he was nice even before he knew i was a girl.

It s hard to make friends. Therefore we have to treasure them.

That s why i felt like killing myself when i lost the internet connection and couldnt find him anymore. Grr.

Will post about what my bro bought for me at AFA soon XD since theres nothing else i can post about anyway.


-kamineko

FG568

(DONT WATCH FIRST. read the postt for explanations XD)

WHen I heard that my brother was coming this Sat, my heart FLEW.

I havent seen him since Feb this year. Anyway, he s bringing the warcraft disc FINALLY. Then i can play run kitty run[also known as rkr](watch vid above) with him and Zheng Tian(haha pris dont jealous :P).

I tried to look for a better video(without lame comments) and the Numb version(the one above is the Cascada one), but couldnt find any.

The main aim of rkr is to reach the centre of the game map, without crashing into any dogs(cause youll die and you can only be revived by other players who are not dead). The guy in the vid above solo-ed it, so if he died, the game ends, cause there are no other players.

Watch the vid.

May be a bit boring for people who dont go warcrafting, but for me, i can watch such vids for an hour.

Hehe.

Will post again soon.

-kamineko

(have i actually posted rkr vids here before??? XD)

x4-51: Dragonica Craze

I dont know how to describe this. After you read these symptoms, tell me if Im addicted to Dragonica:

-Im on Drago for about 7 hours per day on weekdays.
-I ll feel strange if I dont play Drago for a day, but I will have no urge to actually go and launch Drago and start playing it.
-I feel sian when Im playing Drago.
-But i also feel thrilled when Im playing Drago.
-After I stop playing Drago for the day, i feel strange unfulfilled zoned out unrealistic.

The last one was bullshit.
Still I cant figure out if Im addicted.
Pris you should try out Drago. It s kinda like maple, but with somewhat cooler moves and graphics.

~

Just awhile ago I kinda thought of how often I used to play badminton last time with Xiaoxiao, Renee, Charles, Clarissa and some random malay boy who was 3 heads shorter than I was.

And at that memory I remembered how Charles used to call me.
He d call "Kris!"
I pondered on whether it sounded like "Chris" or "Kris", but afterawhile the scale tipped towards the "Kris" side as I replayed his pronunciation of my name in my head.

But he didnt actually pronounce it as " Kris". He would say " Kreeeze."
He makes me sound like a slimebug.
I have no idea what slimebugs are.
Whatever it is, his pronunciation of my name sounds really.... Slimy.
Oh well.


-kamineko

{going back to drago naow}

{i shall blog about random stuff so this blog cant be considered dead}

FX400desf1

Okay so if youve noticed ive now got this great song on my blog, Waiting For The End by Linkin Park. XD

I'm in love.


With the song.



Ive always got this feeling that Linkin Park shot to fame because of their catchy tunes(some songs only), and their lyrics. Especially the lyrics.

Ive always felt that I could relate to their lyrics, and it feels as if the song understands me. I wonder if that s how linkin park's fans feel too?

I know im speaking bullshit but this is the only way i can describe it.
Nevertheless, Im still a linkin park fan.
I know i dont seem like a rock person.
Oh well.

So here s the song lyrics(the ones in italic) and my thoughts. Maybe on some lines you ll find that you and I have the same feelings for that line of lyrics. but sometimes my interpretation may differ from yours... XD



This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
[it never is the end, it never is the beginning. it s like the median period in your life and time just froze there.]

Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
[never really got this line of lyrics XD]

But you listen to the tone
And the violet rhythm
[...]

Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em
[ it s always like that... even the most convincing and reassuring words of comfort(or any other stuff) have this certain... emptiness and doubt in it.]

We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
Thats invisible there,
[i call it delusional confidence and hope... but im also holding onto something that seems highly invisble... it s something called feelings. for a special somebody. who d rather look at the sky than look at me... ha.]

Cuz we're living at the mercy of
The pain and the fear
[ it s because it hurts and affects us so much that we let pain and fear climb over our heads. ]

Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all dissapear.
[that s somewhat like my attitude: everything = passing memory. 'until we dead it, forget it, let it all disappear...']

Waiting for the end to come
[ive been waiting for the end to come ever since my brain was old enough to know its waiting for the end to come.]

Wishing I had strength to stand
[frankly, ive never had much confidence in me. it s true when they say that your skin gives you confidence. ive never said it out loud but... sometimes i just dont feel like i can hold my head up high even when im doing something as simple as walking on the road. i mean, just look at all my skin problems. dont try to comfort me on this; it never works.]

This is not what I had planned
It's out of my control....
[my feelings for zoom was not what i had planned. it s out of my control. all that crapshit that freaking genes that make my skin the way it is now was not what i had planned. it s out of my control. everything is.]

Flying at the speed of light
[hah. this line fits mrt very well]

Thoughts were spinning in my head
[always did]

So many things were left unsaid
It's hard to let you go...

[im not gonna say anything for this... but wing should understand deeply what meaning these lines have for me. dont you? priscilla and lourdes too, though your understanding will be considerably much less deep... ha. i really love these lines.]

I know what it takes to move on,
[a hell lot of crapshit. pain.]

I know how it feels to lie,
[alot more crapshit, alot more pain.]

All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
[for something better of course.]

Holding on to what I haven't got
[i hold my imaginary reach on to things far beyond my reach. all the time.]

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
[i sit in rooms trying to forget the past. but im not so rich as to afford an empty room meant for stoning. ha. what a joke.]

This was never meant to last,
I wish it wasn't so...
[i wish it wasnt so too. but the thing was, it never started, so it never lasted. why the hell issit rhyming]

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,
[I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

What was left when that fire was gone?
[zoom is that fire. i dont know what will happen. im scared to know what will happen. i ll become lifeless. dead. a zombie. a corpse. the world will go back to being black and white.]

I thought it felt right but that right was wrong

[oh god do i love this sentence]


All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on

And i don't even know what kind of things I've said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead

[ everytime i talk about zoom/family related things this is what happens. i love these lines too.]

So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?
[i have no idea.]

The hardest part of ending Is starting again!!
[ i have ideas.]

All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what i haven't got...

This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violet rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em
(Holding on to what i haven't got)

We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
Thats invisible there,
Coz we're living at the mercy of
The pain and the fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all dissapear
(Holding on to what i haven't got!)

-kamineko

Made this AMV when i was kinda emo. If i can do more vids in a short period of time without losing the quality of a good AMV, id make a Youtube account and spam AMV's=.=

I DO NOT OWN THE SONG OR THE ANIMATION; JUST REARRANGED IT AS A FAN-MADE VIDEO.

Please watch and help me rate and comment T.T PLEASE pLeAsE PlEaSee..... This is the first successful AMV ive made that doesnt seem scrappy like my Angel Beats! one did.....

Best watched in fullscreen.

GH8910d

I dont like the way my blog posts all revolve around the guy who finishes tau sar paus in two bites.
But I did think about it.
If I didnt write about him, i wouldnt need to blog at all.
Which is strange, cause now whether I post or not seems dependent on mrt.

Anyway, I just started watching Hakuouki. I like the art, and the guys are hot. But it s quite dry for me, cause there hardly is any romance.
Well actually I just finished episode 3, so it s too soon to say, but in the anime, 3 episodes covered a few months in different eras so it feels long.

About the strange, strange saturday, im a bit reluctant to do part 2... Cause it s really tedious... But I know that if i dont record these memories somewhere i ll be losing them somewhere down the line.
And it s seldom that i get Epic happenings.

I cut my hair short. Didnt tie it up today when i went to school.

Saw lao shi and mdm kala today.

mdm kala: OH your hair is growing longer.
me: um, i just cut it...
mdm kala: ohhh.
me: er, haa....


lao shi: eh, ni de tou fa huan le [eh, your hairstyle changed]
me: ah.
lao shi: bu cuo leh... [not bad leh]
me: ah (smiles)

I forgot my thank you.

mrt didnt say naything about my hair, though i think i felt him blinking at it.
Here we go. Im talking about mrt again, and you reading about mrt makes ya feel excited(quote Lourdes) right?
LOL
I ll just continue talking about him then, because tomorrow is the last day he ll be my teacher for god knows how long.
He s a good teacher, you have to admit that. Want proof that im not bias? Approach Leanne, moe or mira, i asked them about mrt.

Moe: I WANT MRT
Me: (laughs) Sounds wrong. Cause he s nice right?
Moe: YA.. (hugs the table)

Leanne: Yeah he s an interesting teacher. I rather he teaches us next year. (i think you said something like that, sunflower-loving person)
Me: Yep.

Me: Do you think mrt is a nice teacher??
Mira: Ya he very nice lehh...

Okay, so at the end of math consultation today i immediately took out my black japanese songbook to destress, cause today the math practices were extremely draining and i didnt get enough sleep. I.NEEDED.TO.SING.

not that i thought mrt would bother if i sang or not.
but he did.
thank god i hadnt actually started singing, i was just staring at the lyrics.

MRT: what are you readinggg? -snatches songbook away-
Me: -shocked- Er, um, that s my japanese songbook and i er, er, ER, use it to destress...
MRT: hmm... -flips through songbook-
Me: -thinking WTF IS GOING ON?!- I-
MRT: Can you sing a song for me? -somewhat evil/playful smile?-
Me: Um I...
Cher Ting: sing!
-everyone stares at me expectantly-
Me: Nooo dowannn...
-suddenly people started pestering me to sing, and mrt stood in the corner, smirking.-
Me: PAEAN! SING WITH ME, SING WISH! BY SOWELU
Paean: NOOO!!!
Me: ASDFGHJKL!!
Cher Ting: Ya!
Me: Ya?
Some random people: Sing sing sing!
Me: FINE i ll sing, dam! But i need my phone, and the intro of the song is quite long (smiles)
MRT: Aiya then nevermind i need go already
Me: OKAY -yay!-

Just in case you dont know or forgot, mrt is the choir teacher-in-charge.
That only occurred to me after he left.
My eyes shifted onto the table.

What the hell is this... I thought.
Shit. Mrt's answer script!

"MR TANNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!" i screamed as i ran out of class, after him.
Geez so drama.
With his usual rocket-walking speed, he was already going to go down the rotunda stairs.

" MR TANNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!" i screamed again.
the seniors on the opposite block stared at me.
Whoops.

mrt finally turned around.
" YOUR ANSWER SCRIPTTTT!" i shouted from where i was, stopping.
I expected him to walk back.
But instead, he gestured to me to go to him.
Zzz.
Making a girl run toward him.
THAT IS NOT,
SO NOT,
gentlemanly.

When i got there, panting, he said "thanks," and walked off.
I sighed and went back to class to find sarah yew and cher ting rummaging through my stuff.

Walking forward, i prepared for war.

-kamineko

strange. very strange. part 1

Oh boy this is gonna be long.

Well basically, saturday was really, REALLY strange.

Im just gonna run through the events of the whole day anyway.



~





So we had to return to school for the P6 Open House thing. I boarded the bus and sat at the seat at the back of the bus. Then, a woman tapped my arm, and I looked up. Cher Ting's mom.



Oh, what a perfect start to the day.



So i entertained her mom all the way to school and up the slope, and parts of our conversation included:



-CT's mom: Cher Ting should be in the same group with you for EVERY PROJECT because you two live near each other.

-Me: Er.



-CT's mom: Cher Ting complained that your class the math teacher talk very fast.

-Me: Ah.



-Ct's mom: Cher Ting say her group members all dont want to work properly with her...

-Me: Ah.





And that sums up the gist of our convo... THough we talked about tuition, math consultations(and unfortunately mrt) and internationalisation.



So while we were walking into the school I saw Bernice(hope she didnt think of Cher ting's mom as mine, i dont like misunderstandings), and then i met Yui Fei, and when I told her id be going to macs with mrt and them later, she was so happy she shook me like she was rattling her coin box and i got dizzy.



Anyway, I proceeded to the monet lab. entertained many parents and their intimidating questions. Nadine, Leanne and Denise popped in(denise popped in and out about 50 times, im surprised she didnt become popcorn), whereas isabelle and yf came in and never left XD
And denise kept saying JOIN NETBALL! and she scared p6 people off.
It was nice in the monet lab, cause while we were doing our art they were playing anime music and i sang along sometimes, and the seniors were like wtf.



Then around the time when my slot for the open house thing ended, i went to change from my school clothes to my outing clothes(cause afterwards i would go to Vivo with Pris, aka fish). Wing, YF and isabelle were stoning directly outside, and i felt self conscious as they like, practically scanned my whole outfit. And i wore my gladiator shoes. yf so dam funny, she kept asking me if i wanted her vest, cause my dress was, according to her, 'skintight'. LOL YF WTH? Wing was like it s okay ma, isabelle neh say anything.



So.. We went to the foyer and saw mrt walking up the stairs to ground level(where we were).

I think he didnt know i was christal at first. Cause of the costume change.

But first thing when he approached us i went up to him and said " uh mr tan, i probably have to leave early cause im meeting my friend and we re going out...."

He said something like. "Couldnt you have went another day?"

I cant remember my reply @.@

But i remember it had the keyword 'disapointment'.



So anyway,

mrt: you look strange.

me: ya.

mrt: all black.

me: ya not like i wanted to, it just happenned to be.



then i started talking to wing about the photoshop stuff.
While we were walking outta school I SAW NEW TOWN STUDENTS.
you have absolutely no idea how I felt. I practically screamed HI NEW TOWN PEOPLE I WAS FROM NEW TOWN PLEASE JOIN CRESCENT!!
the whole family gave me the wtf look. anyway.

Wing: That was dam random.

So as we continued out of school(down the slope to the bus stop), mrt met someone he knew, then he stopped to talk.
so wing, yf, isabelle and i ran away from him, all the way down the slope and to the bus stop. and by the time we reached there, he was still talking to that person =.=
i stopped running first, cause i wasnt in the running attire, then wing stopped too.
i knew yf, wing and belle(gonna call her belle) would be mean to mrt, so i thought i should be nice.
Just for today, i thought.

So we waited for mrt to come down the slope(he took his time and smiled at us from afar sommore, so mean).
Then we continued our walk to the mrt station.


Cause there were us 4 students(even number), no one wanted to walk with mrt(aw).
so occasionally i go walk with him luh, and spam him questions.
There were silences in between, and then one of us would break it by giggling(except mrt of course, he doesnt giggle @.@ LOL)
then us students were like "god so strange... this is so strange..."
the othr 3 didnt really voice it out, cause the awkwardness was already voiced out by our giggling/laughing.
So i just said out loud, cause at that moment it was one of the silent periods(i happenned to be walking beside mrt then).

Me: "It s very strange... I mean like, what are we gonna talk about..."

mrt: "you." (smiles)

me: "why...?" (looks up at the sky)

i regret reacting that way. i was embarrassed, of course, but the thing was, this sms convo happenned yesterday, which was the main reason for my reaction.


mrt: where r u?

me: im er, going to hospital.

mrt: what happen? U v sick?

me: no la something crop up, that s all.


i was thinking that he d be asking me what happenned in the hospital the day back when he said "you".
I didnt wanna talk about that.
So i looked at up the sky.

After i thought about my reaction, i regretted it. Again, as i hate misunderstandings, i seriously wondered what mrt thought about my reaction. Then again, maybe he didnt think of anything.
Anyway, i concluded,


MRT
is
a



F.L.I.R.T.






okay, putting that aside, when we approached the traffic light, the green man was blinking.
"Dont cross," i said.

Everyone crossed anyway.


Zzz.

Yui Fei ran across while we all brisk walked, and it was the strange silence again, so I broke it by saying "lol racehorse"(indicating yf).
Then when we reached the other side(lol sounds like we went to heaven) of the road, we started talking about halloween, and wing mentioned something about cutting two holes in a plastic bag and putting it on someone s head.

Mrt: whose head?
Wing: yours la.


LOL epic. Then i heard nadine had cancelled her halloween party. Sad, cause i actually considered going for it lol.

So i walked with belle most of the time to the station, and since wing walked with ah ma, mrt was an outcast again, most of the time, though occasionally wing and yui fei walked beside him too.

I was carrying alotta stuff, so i asked the other 3 to help me carry the plastic bag i was holding, and no one was willing cause in it were my school shoes(what s wrong with that man).
I didnt ask mrt of course.
So in the end i managed to balance it atop my tpc, and i gave pris a call, which was quite rambly.

So when we were on the mrt train, it was really crowded. i wanted to stand somewhere between the 3 of them, but i ended up standing with mrt instead.

God dam those 3 people. I wonder if they purposely did it.
Oh and the crowds, they threatened to push me against mrt, but i rooted myself to the spot.
Rooting myself to the spot was bad.
Because then the train jerked, and i fell against mrt. ALMOST.
A.L.M.O.S.T.
almost.
I gained my balance in time and end up knocking my shoe with someone else's instead.

The train doors opened, and we went out.

PART 1: END

-kamineko