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hais. i cant find any time to post nowadays. i just got onto the com 5 mins ago and now im being told to turn it off D:
i have quite alot of stuff to ramble about though XD
shall find some time before school reopens D:
dont even have time to rkr nowadays. i wanna try out the lunar paradise map online with other players; see if it works. everything is in spanish but oh who cares.


-kamineko
[this is probably like the shortest post ever >_>]

just a small thingy...

Merii Kurisumasu to all you people out there :3

I know im kinda late, but now is better than never :3

Theres some people I would like to thank especially. :3

It s quite a long list actually. For me. :o

And im checking it twice :3

Thank you lourdes and wing, for always reading my blog. And tagging(though wing you stopped recently) :3

[Dear wing, I know that zoom has always strained our friendship D:

But that wont stop happening til' I stop liking him. D:

So please do tolerate it D:

Gomenasai.

I wish I didnt have to put you through this. >__<]

[Dear Lourdesu, thanks for always(and Im saying like, always always) being there :3

Sometimes I cant help but feel that youre the only one I can connect to anymore. >_>

I hope that wont change.

It may though. No one knows.

But at least we both know that the memory of that will never fade away :3]

And of course, dear priscilla.

[Ive felt like ive known you since my past life. XD

Well you know what I ll say to you.

So you keep those words inside you. :3]

And a special little thanks goes to vineeth :3

[Hello Vineeth.

I have to admit youre one of the weirdest weirdasses Ive met this year.

Take that as a compliment kayzxc Im serious :3

But thanks for making me laugh alot :3

Dont stop making people laugh kay.

Not everyone has the talent to do that.]

Plus Zecheng.

[Hello weirdass number 2 ive met a long time ago. =3=

Youre a strange dood. o_o

(im not sorry that youre getting strange thank-you notes kay XD)

But somehow it feels like youre my little bro.

Im not shy when I talk to you, and thats rare for when Im communicating with guys.

Anyway, thanks for being that irritating little dood whos nice to piss off XD

I PROMISE YOU WE LL GO DDR ONE DAY D:]

Andd Clarissa and Sheila(im sorry if I didnt get your name right sheila XD)

[Thanks for being strange maplestory partners :}

As well as being nosey neighbours who always wanna know which and what kinda guy I currently like XD

You two are 100% jellygops. XD]

And of course my brother :D.

[If by some strange miracle you visit my blog,

just wanna say thanks for being my brother.

i remember that time long ago when i was crying,

you just sat beside me and stared at me until i stopped.

you weirdass.

But I

Love you. (and no i cant say that in real life i dont have the guts im sorry >_>) as a brother of course XD

You ll always be that wonderful asshole of a grunt, too :3

and promise me that no matter what happens to our stupid parents, dont leave me k. pinky promise.]

There are plenty more people Id like to thank, but I obviously dont have all the space in cyberspace to type it all out ;D

Anyway, probably half of the people Ive mentioned above dont even read my blog, Im sure.

But my special thanks still goes to all of you, regardless of who you are, who have bothered talking to me, listening to me andd reading my blog.

Im not an easy person to tolerate.

I ll frankly tell you Im temperemental as well. I do try to hide it though. Wonder if Im doing well.

But Im sorry if Ive exploded at any of you this year.

>_>

Oh and please do drop a tag if you pass by. Id appreciate it. Especially if youre one of those who's been reading my blog but you just dont tag. I ll thank you properly ;D

It s cold today.

-kamineko

Birdy birdy

holy shit i love this parrot XD the bird's name is lolita and shes hilarious XD.

-kamineko

Yay AMV?

okay so er, here s the AMV ive been working on for 3 days[sorry if it seems kinda laggy... decoder's fault =3=]... Please do comment on it! Oh and er, dont try to read the subs, cause it s best if you focus on the picts themselves XD.

I couldnt find the raw versions of the animes/anime movies, so I had to make do with these subbed ones.

Enjoy :d

Animes/ Anime Movies involved: Angel Beats!, Howl's Moving Castle, 5cm per Second, Spirited Away.

Music: She Is(instrumental)-Clazziquai

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE ABOVE STATED ANIMES/ANIME MOVIES OR SONGS; JUST REARRANGED THEM TO CREATE A FAN-MADE VIDEO FOR MY FAVOURITE ANIMES AND ANIME MOVIES.

-kamineko

i really like you.

tell me to stop, please.

it s so tiring.

you fill my mind

every single day

every single waking hour.

under my eyelids, there you stand.

there you run

there you play.

even in my sleep

you lurk

you haunt

in my land,

i see you atop a mountain

i see you riding the clouds

i see you across the oceans

your shadow never fails to fall across mine.

why do i always find myself overlapping you?

youre an addictive
drug

i cant live without

my life was cold and
hard

but you

came along

and with a drop of honey, salt
and sugar

you softened my life

as if

as if

it was something you did
everyday.

ice

fire

you are both these
elements.

freezing my heart

so that it stops only for
you

burning my emotions

so that only you can
control

im obsessed with you

so lost

so confused

show me the way

lead me out of here

i want to escape

from your labyrinth.

why wont you let me out?

let me out

let me

let

me

out.

please

p

l

e

a

s

e

im begging you.

cant you see?

it puzzles me

it s really strange

how youre so oblivious to my obvious affection.

your eyes

your ears

your heart

your soul

i want it all

i want them all

i want to own it all

i want to own them all.

why wont you...

let me?

let me LeT Me lEt mE LET ME l e t m e l.e.t. m.e.!

i wanna be your eyes

your ears

your heart

a fragment of your shadow

a part of your soul

i want to be it all

i want to be them all

i want this to be all.

let me go.

i want to escape.

do you know how it feels?

to be trapped in someone elses' maze

unable to get out?

i want to spread my wings and fly

i want to forget you

but why cant i?

get out

out of the door

out of the lift

out of my heart

out of my mind

get out

out out out

but still

you

dig your way down to my heart

and the exit caves in behind you

your smile

akin to the sunlight that filters through my window

your kindness

something i cant run away from

your laugh

echoes to me from afar

it lifts my heart

drawing me near

drawing me close

closer to you

i want to be closer to you

i cant help myself.

stop me for me, please?

who were you

to barge into my life

uninvited?

who were you

to occupy so much space

in my heart's thumbdrive?

can i recycle you?

trash you?

can i punch you?

can i smack you?

can you stop me?

youre the only one who can

and yet

my heart denies

it forever wages a war with my mind

what s right

what s wrong

what s black

what s white.

is there a grey?

i dont know

i really dont.

does the answer lie deep within you?

but someday, i want you to know my feelings.

hopefully, you can return them too?

can i laugh at my insanity?

obsessioneity.

i want to stop.

and you

you

you are the only one

who has the power

to stop my heart.

-kamineko

Everybody's leaving and i dont feel the same

Wing s going to malaysia and coming back on the 22nd.
Lourdeh's coming back on the 23rd
XD
I ll be lonely in between cause no one else spams me as much as these two.

---

Ive been thinking about the stuff that happenned between him and me(i know i make it sound like ALOT has happenned haha but not really :/) for this whole year.
After that i feel like banging myself for all my reactions.
Geezus.


Eriku-sama and my brother share the same birthday.
My birthday will fall on a monday next year. Sad. i hate Mondays.

I want him to wish me happy birthday.
But im afraid that it falls on New Year's or New Year's Eve and he cant wish me.
You know.
Cant see his smile and all.
Oh well.

I created a new word.
Obsessioneity.
Obsessioneity sucks.
It makes you think too much.
Way too much.

-kamineko

[a drop of honey, salt and sugar]

Poreotics!

My favourite dance crew :D

Korean dancers are good too but I like Poreotics' like... lag-effect and some of their really unique dance moves.

Im not a professional dancer so i dont know how im supposed to describe dance moves XD

---

but i was really happy when i found this vid by nigahiga(he s aweshum too; dam hilarious) that features Poreotics

-kamineko

[if i have enough brain cells i ll create a -Zoom X Kuristallu- SMS romance novel AHAH]

[cant wait to send the first story to Lourdeh.]

[Pris'll punch me if i send her the story]

["WHY ISSIT SO MUSHY?!" she d say :3]

[he s addictive.]

[very.]

"I ll forget that punch."

"It didn't hurt?"

"No, it didn't."

"You want me to punch you
again?"

"NO. Thanks."

"I'm just here to accomapny you."

Skyline

Dion: see i got so many salonpas
Me: >_> why you use salonpas? why you old woman ah whole body ache
-dion plucks off 2 of the salonpas plasters from the back of her neck-
Dion: i dunno leh my family use salonpas then i use also lor. After netball my whole body ache like shit.
Me: eh wait you were in CHIJ kellogg(shit how spell) right?
Dion: ya. for secondary school i DSA to CHIJ toa payoh through netball. actually i got DSA to crescent but too far for me LOL i lazy.
Me: ehhh LOL i got DSA to CHIJ toa payoh through art lol but too far for me oso.
-strange silence for 5 secs-
Me: Oh by the way do you know chen xi? from kellogg?
Dion: OH YA THAT ONE WHOLE DAY STONE AND STARE ONE RIGHT
Me: YA YA YA THAT ONE
-both of us demo chen xi's staring to each other LOL-
-i laughed first-
Mr Chin(tuition cher): you two know each other? -indicating dion and me cause dion just joined the tuition class-
me: ehhhhhhh no?
Mr Chin: you both seem very close
-dion and i laughed at the same time and say no la at the same time-

haha christ.
wish zoom and i had that kinda... telepathy thingy. or a huge amount of coincidence.
i love tuition. i feel like i belong there. and i feel as if im more accepted there than i am at crescent.
when i walk into tuition there are actually people who are happy to see me.
rachael and debbie were like CHRISTALLLL!!! when i walked in and they were flailing their hands at me.

you dont have to read the paragraph in the xtremely small text. nothing exciting there. just had to ramble somewhere.

you know?
that feeling?
it s nice to feel treasured.
you dont feel aimless. or like a wandering soul.
maybe thats why im so attached to pri school...
going to school felt meaningful back then. I looked forward to going to school.
xiao yu would always pull my chair out for me when i walked in on rainy days back in p5. sometimes he d help me put my dripping umbrella at the back of class.
cornelius always said good morning to me when i walked in. he d give me his crooked smile though his eyes still had the sian look to them and comment on my hair sometimes. id return the favour.
lourdes and jue ying are always there ready to lend an ear to whatever shit i had to spill.
theyd always be ready to sing with me when i wanted to :3
priscilla would wave from the other class.
"yellow," she d mouth. id mouth back "pineapple crunch!' and then we d give each other an air smack.
id frown at suthin's monkey face.
zheng tian always comes to me when im unhappy and asks "who make you sad? i beat him for you."
when brandon helped the chers return worksheets he d always put a worksheet on my table and say "yours." id flip it around and he d laugh and say "no la not yours why you take tsk" and i fell for this trick every time.
shelly, lourdes, moh moh, jue ying and i would visit the cats.
we d buy cat food and feed calico, cocoa and C.H.
shelly'd give me her magazines if i popped by her house.
pris, faye, zt and i would talk late into the night(2 am-ish) with MSN group converssations, and we d laugh over silly things we did.
and faye and i got pris to confess.
and i ended up telling zt who zombie was.
and we found out faye liked jy.
and we found out that zt and xx were TOGETHER.
zecheng, ajay, cherry and i would always compete for the highest marks in english haha... id still win them :3
then pris, faye, zt and xx were my blog regulars... now it s mostly only wing and L.
there s a shitload more.
maybe that s why i dont like crescent cause what i was used to facing in pri sch was so different.
"take crescent as the real world," my brother had said. he d smiled reassuringly after that. "i can help you in amath, too."

then again....
maybe it s just me.

i think im complaining too much.
but i want my old life back.
i know im clinging too hard onto it.
it s not gonna get me anywhere.
soredemo boku wa....
stil i...

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So on mundaye wing, leanne and i went to West Mall and DDR-ed. It was cool, but tiring. Good way to exercise though, especially for someone like me. After we -danced- we went to eat KFC and gained fats again :3
pro.
Leanne has a different way of standing on escalator steps, i noticed.
After that about 5-ish i went to dhoby ghaut to meet my aunt and uncle LT(who just returned from US) and we went to MBS. not bad. the scenery was a wow-factor.
Then after that we went to eat at a pub.
Pub.
PUB.
i thought i was underage to enter one but my aunt said they served food, so it was okay.
It was freaking dark in there.
I strained my eyes to read the menu and ordered something called Bangers and Mash.
I was wondering what bangers was, and i realised it was sausages. Nothing strange, thank god.
Cause a few days back my aunt insisted i try eating snails.
Escargots.
ACTUALLY THEY TASTE NICE.
They are...
Chewy.
And
chewy.
I ate mine with cheese ;3

Oh well back to the pub. I commented that it looked like hell's restaurant LOL. it did cause the walls has designs of clouds- but they were reddish mixed with this bleh shade of orange.
dinner was nice.
after that uncle LT asked me if i wanted anything from the US and i was like
"oh hayao miyazaki's spirited away it s from ghibli studios and oh castle in the sky and howl s moving castle is really good too and any other movies from the ghibli studios and joe hisaishi he s a musician yeah his music pieces are great like kuchuu sanpo and ryuu no shounen and this thing called dance dance revolution yaknow yaknow the tv version yeah but dont get that if it s too ex i think theres a disney version of it i dont think i want that cause it looks lame-"

at the end of it he looked really bonked out so he gave me a piece of paper and said "write down what you just said" and i was like zzz so i wrote it down but left out DDR.. didnt wanna be greedyy.

-----

today after tuition i went to tiong and ate sakae sushi with fish :3
after dinner my wallet was empty =..=
andd i owe fish $9 (my aunt nevah give me enough money for the tuition fees so i had to take from my dinner money D:)
andd i owe wing $6.50... right?
it feels strange to be on a loan....
i seldom borrow money.
oh well bad habits tend to arise during the hols. for me =...=

shall stop rambling.

-kamineko

[you, your fragile heart and what army]

DDR!

Dance Dance Revo. Holy cow watch them dance.

It s obviously practiced but really aweshum nonetheless

-kamineko

Mish Mash

So today was basically:
-Meet pris at jurong east int. 2.20p.m.
-Tried to take a cab to JY's school- Commonwealth Sec, but the taxi stand queue too long and got 0 cabs =..=
-Take mrt train to Lakeside station and got onto a cab there cause got no queue at all and cab waiting time much shorter AHAHA we smartass :3
-Reached her school at about 2.50. The choir concert we were attending started at 2.30 =.=
-Commonwealth Sec's choir was blocking the entrance into the auditorium cause they were going to sing next and we were like SHIT how to go in.
-Then got TWO NICE C'WEALTH SEC GUYS WERE LIKE "Are you attending the C'est La Vie concert?"
-We said " ya." Duh.
-Then we go the ticket counter thingy and showed them our tickets. There was some lame lucky draw thing and I got a bag. Pris got some stationery but she told the people at the counter that she didnt want them.
- I assure you they were like WTH GOT FREE THING YOU DONT TAKE.
-I wanted to tell her "eh eh you help me take leh dowan gimme i collect trash one" but i decided not to be greedy :3
-went into the auditorium, burning from embarrassment cause we were under speculation from the CSS choir stoning outside.
-sat near the door. south view primary was singing. they very cute XD
-aft they finish was CSS turn to sing. then JY walk in and i was like "JUE YINGGG!!!!!" BUT SHE NEVER HEAR D:
-some songs included Kimi Nosete by Joe Hisaishi from Castle in the Sky(another Ghibli animation -heartzxc- and about 3 more Jap songs.
-Pris was babbling about how cute the guy sitting behind us was.
- I told her she had her dyllie already, cannot look at other guys :3
-We considered going to IMM to eat sushi tei but I got no time cause i was going to visit Lourdesss.
-Rush back to commonwealth station then rush to Lourdes' house. Adrienne was in too :D
- Sang Campanella[GUMI], Spice {Len Kagamine} and Go Google It (Gakupo + Luka). Three of us sit in her house talk talk talk XD
(the one smiling at cam is adrienne, the one looking away is lourdes XD)
-Aft awhile we go buy bubble tea/slurpee. Adrienne took a slurpee, Lourdes got a cuppucinno[shit how spell] and i got a chocolate oreo ice-blended :3
-We go the playground near the ulu ulu train tracks there(post some vids another day).
-Saw a cat.
-Black and white cat.
-Pat cat.
-Go walk along the train tracks.
{you can see from here that if the train came i mati le}


{this 2 ppl also will die with me}



but we never die la.
Sad right T..T



4/12/2010
This was at Lourdes' HDB block. There was a discarded mattress and this cat was on it. Oh and by the way the sign says DANGER(you cant see it in the photo). saw this when i was going home with adrienne.
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FRIDAY
TO SEE THE LIGHTS.

Orchard road got this gay christmas tree.
I went inside it.
Im serious.
watch the vid




ION orchard lor. Place for rich freaks.

Inside ION Orchard lor. Place for rich freaks.

AH see food republic. Here for not-so-rich freaks.

Nice lighting. No offence but Dick Lee's designs for some of the previous christmas lightups sucked. Big Time

This one random la. My brother playing Doom 3. Nothing scary cause my cam suck.

Have some leftover vids. I ll post another day :3
3.06 am


=kamineko

stareedusterr

Starduster by Miku. Amazing. I like Mimu's version too.

Vocaloid voices just get more real over time.

-kamineko

Videeyo poste~

I was thinking it was time to post LOL but I cant bother myself to type out text. Therefore Ive gathered up some old vids from my old phone on XX's bday celebration last year at the ulu commonwealth place. Enjoyzxc(though im not sure what there is to enjoy about for you -3-)!


This is faye and cherry scrambling up the hill at the ulu place XD
DONT ASK ME WHY THERE WERE MONKEY-LIKE SOUNDS AT THE END. THAT WAS PRIS =..=

The crazy woman stamping on the bench is xx. Halfway through pris keep asking me help her open the plastic wrapped over the plates then there was alot of scrambling LOL when i passed her my cam. Then when i passed shelly the plates she was like "thank you mao" and i SWEAR I HAD GOOSEBUMPS CAUSE SHE CALLED ME THAT WAY.
But now that i listen to it it just gets kinda nostalgic luh so okayy...


-kamineko.