3.58 p.m.

I'm sitting in my aunt's office freezing. I really shouldn't have worn a sleeveless dress here. erg. I've got this big scarf draped all around me but i can still feel the cold. Maybe it's also because i
haven't eaten lunch yet.

Im hating someone now. So badly I could strangle 'em. And in turn I'll let these air-cons devour me with their frosty tendrils. Better English in this post, huh? Yeah. I guessed since my English has been kinda idle for the whole of December I'd better get it back into shape before school starts. Man, it's like, New Year's eve already. Sigh. I'm not looking forward to life the coming four years. How much excitement do you get in a girls' school? Everyone is so well behaved it freaks me out. I know I'll adjust. I have to. Not much of a choice here. Eek. The air-con's creeping down my legs. I'm gonna do some extra random stuff.

1st SMS in your phone: From --: Anonymous. <-this person requests to remain anonymous on my blog so yeah.
!st contact in phone: Addrienne(sorry if I got your name wrong)
Last contact: Ironically, Zheng Tian
First Video: D. Grayman AMV
First Music Track: After Dark by Asian Kung-Fu Generation(its a Jap song)
Last Sms in phone: From --: Dono. Must ask someone.
3rd last: From --: Wanna hear a dream? Got you and Jy and Priscilla inside. =.=
2nd from top: From --: I wish to remain ah, anon on your blog please. Thanks.
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What you like about yourself: Me.
What you dislike about yourself: Me. Everything except my drawing skills. But I wish I have better drawing skills. I know not to expect too much from life though. But those people who have what I want are so, so lucky.
Do you love your sibling?(if applicable): YES!!! I love that grunt so much though he can be a bit insensitive.

ok, pris. you wan a 5000 word essay????

Well, I cant give it to you. XD

ok. so i got to the MRT station first. 9.18. we planned to meet at 9.30. decided to visit cats. walked there. when we were approaching NTPS main gate it was 9.26. decided to walk back without seeing the cats. pris went 'aiya...'

9.40+ shelly, L and HS(lourdes and hui shan respectively) hadnt arrived. Pris squatted on the floor and leaned against a pillar. JY gave us christmas presents. Rang L up. all 3 were together but L seemed reluctant to answer my 'where r u' question. continued waiting. saw ZC with his grandpa (wth).

9.46. where the hell were those 3? called shelly this time. she say we were supposed to meet at Long John. we(JY, pris and I) received no notification in this change of venue. i got a little angry but decided it wasnt worth it to be angry that day =.= shelly they all came to the MRT station. L gave us our christmas presents- D.Grayman manga woohoo thanks man. Lenalee!

_._pm. on the train. sent all the new songs I dlded to L. some vids as well. a little talking among everyone. Poor HS, cause Valerie couldnt make it so I guess she was kinda left out.

_._pm. got to vivo. went to PageOne(yay). it was goddamn empty so it was nice. ah! the smell of books! aft that we went to Japanese Gourmet Town to eat. Here there were alot of problems lol. Lazy to go into details but aft that we got headache regarding money matters. Hidden costs for 10% service charge and GST. what the hell. the restaurant shouldnt hide it. Left Pris dam broke. i was half broke. apparently there was summin wrong witha change given, and Pris and I ended up paying(unintentionally) for a share of some of the others' food cost and those hidden cost crap. unfair here, but i decided to let it go. some ppl own pris money lol. Loan sharks. Loan fishkiller. o.O

_._p.m. queued up for the sentosa express thingy. shelly had some card which enabled her to receive 4 free tickets. Pris and I paid for our own. wth. i couldnt help but think that they shouldve given pris a free one cause she lost like, $30? but shelly needed a __________ for the free tickets, so each of us tried to ____ the ________. My_______ looked the most similar to the __________one, so all of them started begging me to ____ the thing. i refused cause it was like commiting a crime. it is, i think =.= then some of them were like, walao u very bad leh. OF COURSE U SAY THAT LAH, DUMBASS!!!! U ARENT EVEN THE ONE WHO NEEDS TO DO IT!!!!!

got the tickets and onto the xpress. reached there, go here go there, go to merlion, beach, fort siloso and yada. i almost patted a peacock(those free roaming ones. u may ask pris for evidence^.^) i was kinda scared cause i pat cats- not peacocks. it was like looking at my hand with bright shiny eyes. then this boy-maybe 10/11 years old started screaming and he chiong at the animal so it fled. Dumbass! i should have ticked him off instead of stalking back to pris and the rest while looking up at the sky with my mouth in a tight line. i dont care if his parents are there. i wont.

AT THE BEACH

digged one helluva hole in the sand. i havent stepped on sand in a long time so it was kinda refreshing. L made a track to the sea so the water came into the hole. then this peacock went by and some ppl started going after it wth. someone else(cant remem who) stayed with me and continued digging like a dog. there were 2 stupid indian kids swimming in the sea, and they said we were 'spoiling the beach' wth. I shouldve ticked them off as well. assholes! so i cant say they were polluting the sea with their bodies full of bacteria???? oh and guess what, the water made the sand soft so the walls of the hole collasped and in 5 mins time there wasnt a hole anymore. you couldnt even see that a hole had once been there. so much for spoiling the beach. tsk.

here are the few picts i took. there are some more but aiya, lazy.

we buried our feet in the sand ^.^

Lourdes and the spitting fish

our hole. it grew much bigger and deeper than this, of course.

had to make it more pixelated so these people wont kill me. pris has a habit of putting shoes in front of her face and in front of my nose. erg.

Wreck the Halls with Pawfuls of Dirt.

Ah, Christmas here again. lol. too bad i wasnt American. if not i could say i had the typical christmas with the fireplace and christmas trees and such. but if i were American id probably have friends like john and betty and zack. no jue ying or zheng tian or jun yuan or xiao xiao kind. oh well, american-ish names. Priscilla still included though lol.

Got one hell of a schedule. well, not as busy as lourdes, i know, but yeah. i have to do my assessments and such. i dont think pris, zt or faye need to :( theyre my big time MSN buddies now. how weird. I never thought id talk much to zt but oh well. hes one depressed guy with split personalities. according to that iddy(thats what we call him. short form for idiot but he likes the name o.o). i d shower around 6+, have dinner, do somore assessments and get back onto the com. Ebuddy straight. at night when i off the com(ard 12.30+) i ll write the journal until 1/2 a.m. yes, pris i know youre happy but u got some very messy entries.

have been runescaping(i stopped 2 years ago wth my bro acc at lvl 80 and ajay blabbering away at runescape and brandon begging me for my maple lvl{which i also dont play anymore}). weird, huh. i always stop for this period of time and wala im back again. always end up creating new accs cause i cant remember the passwords. always played with zt but today he didnt rune, just ebuddied. we did the Shield of Arrav together a few days ago, which we thought we screwed up cause both talked to the Black Arm Gang 'boss'. Pris is so stubborn. she doesnt wanna rune -.-. i guess its kinda boring, yeah, so i wont really disagree. everyone is like MAPLING! some kinda christmas tree, i heard. and today there was seemingly some hackshield problem. Regina's PM is usually mapling. ZC's DP is always about maple, Pris' PM is usually mapling and today ZT changed his DP to a maple thingy with a christmas tree in the pict as well. hais. maple craze. i could hate maple more than dota now.

next mon going with shelly to sentosa. whos going anyway? she said she wasnt sure. if u were invited pls inform me on the tagboard! she wants to watch the sunset(with me thinking it was kinda over-romantic here). The girls, man, they make things confusing. i wanted to go Vivo tomoro, and Lourdy isnt free. Mon shelly choke le. next fri is christmas. Lourdy can, I can but shelly, pris and prob JY cannot. wth lor! unless i make like, 2 trips there????

ok sorandom. i wanted to logoff but at the same time i didnt want to. but now i have to cause im going to the library.

oh and pris, the next time you go to the library borrow the book 'Fat Cat' by Robin Brande. novel. its nice but a little disgusting. all books in the adult section are a little gross so cant help it. toodleyloo!

This? well it reminded me of Suthin and Zheng Tian. haha.

-this was a draft a few weeks ago which i decided to post anyway-

sigh. i scalded my left hand. with hot water that just boiled. its burning badly now. tomoro i ll be expecting a lot of blisters =.= this injury is going to disable me in many ways sigh.



today seems like a bad day. not just because of the burn. i felt this ominuous feeling when i woke up this morning. like something bad's gonna happen. which is what im afraid of. i ll try to keep it outta' my mind but it's still there anyway... ok. on to lighter things. im gonna attempt to sound happy and hyper.



-CHRISTMAS IS COMING! WRECK THE HALLS WITH PAWS OF HOLLY!

-Pris is back frm HK. she says theres some shuaige =.=

-JY is leaving tomoro to Taiwan.

-My brother just returned form Taiwan. I think he bought something for me. Which is unheard of cause' i didnt expect someone like him to do that.

-Learnt more about cat behaviors.



ADVENTUROUS SIDE

-i told zt straight that he looks like Joker from Batman.

-i told zt someone thinks he looks like a guinea pig but i couldnt mention who. its not xx anyway, if youre thinking so ^.^

-need to plan a date where pris, shelly, lourdes, jy are free. shelly wants me to bring her to Pageone at Vivocity.

-need to see those cats soon. or they ll forget me :(

- from what ive gathered, T Rex is probably a feral cat. i need to gain his trust but it wont be easy. i need the time to visit him frequently, which i wont have.

-looking for a math tuition centre. with a sprinkle of luck i may be able to have pris join^.^

-need to clear out some stuff with people around me.



NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCES.

-scalded.

-i went for my eye check up on Monday. at KK. 3 rounds of eyedrops to dilate the eye pupils for examining. the eyedrops sting, mind you and they make u sensitive to light which is hell and blurs everything you see. they shone all kinds of light into my eyes. the light is very bright. its like looking into the sun. if you havent experienced it before you wont know. but the light is so bright that you can see flashes of vein-like things in your vision. the doctors detected a tear in my retina(which sends images of what you see to the brain). If i got retinal detachment, which means that the retina becomes loose, i may become blind. caused due to high myopia. my degree rose to 700 and 800 for left and right eyes respectively. they said i might have to go for laser to seal the tear, which freaked me out. they referred me to the Singapore National Eye Centre(SNEC) near SGH and i had more doctors examining my eye on the same day. more lights. more dilation of pupils. the SNEC's eyedrops were more stinging. waited for a long time for the results. even sat outside the laser centre. lots of people were wearing sunglasses indoors cause when you have laser treatment you cant look at bright light. finally the results were out and i was relieved. didnt need laser treatment. the doctor explained lots of 'eye-cology' stuff =.=

-someone almost found out who someone else was.=.=





some funny cat vids for your enjoyment! sorry its blur cause its meant to be for the phone.

RANDOMIZATION

this is part of the convo zt and i had on msn/ebuddy. 'waiting for the reply of friendship' is zt. he always got funny name. not funny. weird. =.= neither pris or faye were online. well, pris went overseas anyway.



waiting for the reply of friendship says:
gtg

waiting for the reply of friendship says:
slp

waiting for the reply of friendship says:
bb

waiting for the reply of friendship says:
nites

I say:
YAY!!!!!!!

I say:
I WIN

I say:
HAHAHA

waiting for the reply of friendship says:
?

I say:
k night

I say:
u go sleep first

I say:
^.^

I say:
usually u stay up the latest

I say:
^.^

I say:
night.

waiting for the reply of friendship says:
so what i do 2nd?

I say:
huh?

waiting for the reply of friendship says:
i go slp first

waiting for the reply of friendship says:
u got plan?

I say:
yah

waiting for the reply of friendship says:
for 2nd?

I say:
no

waiting for the reply of friendship says:
diao

I say:
-.-

waiting for the reply of friendship says:
sounded like i slp u gonna do smthing

I say:
guiness book of records

I say:
^.^

waiting for the reply of friendship says:
ok

waiting for the reply of friendship says:
bb

I say:
cause usually u last to sleep

I say:
night

actually when he said 'sounded like i slp u gonna do something' i should have replied, 'yeah im gonna do something. i ll pop up from the bottom of your bed at 3 am wearing a chicken costume. Howsat'? and throw an huevos podridos in your face.'

then wouldve been better. then he can stay awake in his bed all night trembling like a handphone on vibration mode. ha. too bad.

sigh. so sad. pris and jy and my bro all going overseas but im stuck in Singapore. JY and my bro going to Taiwan. Maybe they will meet lol but none would recognise the other. Twist of Fate. XD

i went to HK when i was younger. I have a vague memory of some parts of the trip but on the overall its nice. more than nice. i guess. going overseas for a small kid is like going to meet Willy Wonka and one of his Ooga Booga creatures. I cant remember te name. i always remember ooga booga instead. sorry. i bought one of those chocolate eggs there- those kind with the toys inside. the toy inside was a rubbish bin. =..= then as ya move it forward the rubbish bin's hands would move.

k 2 am liao must sleep. toodley-loo!

oh and huevos podridos means rotten eggs in Spanish. ^.^

Some lyrics

hihihihi. lol thats a weird starting for me-.-

ok random:

1. MY music chart toppers^.^
no.1: Joint- Mami Kawada {Shakugan no Shana 2)
no.2: My Destiny- Kanon {Angel Heart}
no.3: Finally- Sowelu {Angel Heart}
no.4: Saikou no Kataomoi- Sachi Tainaka {Saiunkoku Monogatari}
no. 5: Te wo Tsunaide- Younha {Jyu oh Sei}this song evergreen lol

all those are female singers. it just so happens. no grudges for men. hopefully thatll last. ^.^

LYRICS FOR TE WO TSUNAIDE
kutsu wo nugisute hadashi ni natta
soshite atashi wa nami wo ketta
futari tsukutta suna no shiro tachi
sarawarenai you ni
dakedo sugu nami ni kesarete
atashi wa youyaku omoi ni kidzuita
Looking into my eyes
you will touch on my heart
anata e no omoi wa kawaranai
tashika na koto yo
Maybe I love you more every day and night
te wo tsunaida naraba
doko made mo ikeru ki ga suru
te wo tsunagu aite ni naritai naa
atashi to jaa nee dame desu ka
onegai

tenkiyohou ga ashita wa hare deshou to tsutaeru
ame ga futtara omoi tsutaeyou
kedo mata yohou wa atatte
atashi wa kyou mo omoi himete iru
Looking into my eyesyou will touch on my heart
sabishii toki wa sugu ai ni iku
yakusoku suru yo
Can you hear my song
I sing for you every night
hitori ja nai tte koto
atashi ga nee oshiete ageru

anata e no omoi kaki kamihikouki tobasu
tsuyoi kaze ga fuite nerai yori hazure
ochite mienakunatta
nanika shinakya hajimaranai

Looking into my eyes
you will touch on my heart
ima anata ni mukai tsutaeyou
yuuki furishibotte

Maybe I love you
more every day and night
kotae ga dou de are
ima dekiru koto wo yaru n da to

Looking into my eyes
you will touch on my heart
anata to iru dake de
zutto tsuyoku nareru ki ga suru

Looking into my eyesyou will touch on my heart
te wo tsunaida naraba
doko made mo ikeru ki ga suru
te wo tsunagu aite ni naritai naa
atashi to jaa nee dame desu ka
kotaete yo
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ENGLISH TRANSLATION OF MEANING FOR TE WO TSUNAIDE

I kick off my shoes and walk barefoot,
kicking at the waves
so that they don’t destroy
the sand castles we built together

But as the waves start to disappear
I finally realize how I feel about you

Looking into my eyes,you will touch on my heart
My feelings for you won’t change
because I’m already sure of them
Maybe I love you more every day and night
If we hold hands, I reckon
we can go anywhere we want
I want to hold hands and be partners
But is this gonna be useless,if the partner is me?
Oh please tell me

You told me the weather would be“sunny skies for tomorrow”but the falling rain shows how I’m feeling
And yet, if your prediction is rightI’ll hide away my feels just for today
Looking into my eyes,you will touch on my heart
Let’s make a promises, to get togetherwhenever we feel lonely
Can you hear my song
I sing for you every night?
If you mean it when yousay that I’m alonethen come on and show me

I write down my feelings for you
and turn the paper into a plane
throwing it into the strong wind
aiming farther than it possibly reach,I didn’t see it falling down,nothing happened, and nothing began

Looking into my eyes,you will touch on my heart
I’ll turn to you right now, and shoutout how I feel about you
Maybe I love you more every day and night
I don’t know how you’ll answer
but whatever happened has happened

Looking into my eyes,you will touch on my heart
As long as you’re here
I reckon I can grow stronger

Looking into my eyes,you will touch on my heart
If we hold hands, I reckon
we can go anywhere we want
I want to hold hands and be partners
But is this gonna be useless,if the partner is me?
Oh answer me baby


k done. the paragraphing was crapped up when i pasted it over here so i had to do paragraphing manually. i think theres a higher chance of me doing it correctly for the japanese version than the english one.

Lyrics from www.gendou.com. arigatou!